u/lnsaneEyes

Many people have failed me in the past, and some are showing up now, trying to do the same and getting frustrated because they can't. I am completely disgusted and filled with immense distaste for all people, even those I don't know. It's as if my pure and kind heart has turned to hard, bitter stone, but my inaccessible interior remains. I never thought it was possible to feel something like this, I thought these descriptions were just drama or fiction.

This is more intense now, and I'm putting everyone in their place, not letting them overstep my boundaries or helping them more than I should. As far as I'm concerned, let them die in ignorance, stupidity, incompetence, or whatever problem each of them has, let them screw themselves over and learn to deal with their own mistakes, or stay in the shit because they can't sort things out on their own.

This week in particular? This weekend? In the past few weeks? How are you all doing?

I'm feeling VERY bad, the people around me are feeling bad too, everyone is suffering and has personal problems, regardless of whether their lives are going well or badly. What's happening?

Today I was planning suicide but I didn't talk to anyone, and I ended up not having time to do anything because I had to take care of someone who had a breakdown (who also mistreated me) and guide that person until they calmed down. All my "friends" are having serious problems and worries, feeling bad. People from outside the area, everyone I observe, is dealing with something and is doing badly.

Nobody even tries to hide it properly anymore, it's obvious and seems global. I observe people from all over the world.

What can you say about this man? Especially in terms of relationships, how does he behave initially?