u/loevs

I've always been a very introverted person and since 18 I've been outside my home because of education. So it's more than 7 years I've had the freedom to do whatever I want with my personal space be it dancing at 3 am at night or whatever. But everytime I come home for a longer period, my anxiety gets over the roof. Usually I am an anxious individual no denial in that but all the crazy anxious debilitating thoughts come to me when I'm at home. In our house, we don't really have a personal space. We got rooms but my grandma prefers to stay in the same room with me since she feels most ease at my room because of the sunlight, window view etc.

This is such a silly thing but Idk why I can only regulate myself in a solitary place where no one can disturb me.

This is one realisation I had recently cause for the past month I've been struggling with my anxiety real real bad that I'm considering taking medicines. But today during my self reflection this observation suddenly popped in my mind and I had an "Aha" moment. Ik this is not the cure of my anxiety but realising how much value a personal space holds in my life and how adding it to my life can improve my life bringing a little ray of hope.

One of the biggest paradoxes of anxiety recovery is that recovery itself can become driven by anxiety. I might start meditating, journaling, chanting, exercising, or practicing gratitude because they are healthy habits. But if my hidden goal becomes "I must do this so my anxiety goes away," then anxiety is still in control. I begin checking: "Did it work? Why am I still anxious? Maybe I need a better routine." The routine stops being something that enriches my life and becomes another attempt to gain certainty and eliminate anxiety. The healthier approach is to let these practices reflect my values rather than serve as weapons against anxiety. I meditate because I value peace, study because I value kniowledge, exercise because I value health, create because I value creativity, and connect with others because I value relationships. Recovery happens not when every action revolves around reducing anxiety, but when my life gradually becomes bigger than my anxiety.

Hey everyone. I've been suffering from anxiety for a very long time now and only recently I've been trying to go deeper into my issue. For the longest time I thought I understood the issue but sometimes there are so many layers that it can end up making a whole anxiety mess. It's been three days I'm trying to find one quiet moment not matter how brief it is and trying to untangle one trigger at a time and it's been helpful. I'm nit anxiety free now but there have been progress. It's so cliche but honestly I feel like this really works.

Moreover once I get into a little quiet space and anxiety wants to come back, I keep saying " I'll worry about (specific thing) after my dinner. I'll worry as much as I can but now I'll do this"

Good luck everyone. Anxiety is not a wall, it's just another challenge.

Also, Don't treat anxiety as a whole big thing. Chunk it down.

1. The physical symptoms
2. The thoughts 3.The behaviours

Think of all those things as separate things.

So I've noticed thing so so so frequently iny life. Whenever im so sure about something without any second thoughts it never happens but a lot of time when I feel scared anxous regarding it ends up not happening as well. I'm so confused oml. Atp it's not even coincidence. I've noticed it recently as well.

For example, so I'm a college student and living in a rent room. last week one of my neighbours informed me that they got a kitten up for adoption. It was a golden dominant calico and so freaking cute. He showed me the pics and i said I'll adopt her in two days after my exam. I was so sure of adopting her. I told my friends about it. Bought a crate for her etc. but on that day when I messaged him asking about the kitty, he informed me that the kitten is missing.

Next example, i was planning to join a coaching institute which give coaching of different govt exams etc. So I called them booked my seat without asking too much since that coaching branch is well known and they have branches all over my state. I knew everything about it so I just prepared to join it. I told my parents. They agreed. We looked for a paying guest. But today I called them again regarding a portion of the syllabus and guess what they said, they said they discontinued the course in this branch like FML already.

I wish I chose something right when I was 18, now I'm about to be 25 in few days and literally regretting all my past choices. Literally everything. Now I don't even know what to do. I'm forced to pursue sumthing that I have zero passion for just because of my past mistakes. I'm running out of time. What adds more to it is that I also struggle with chronic anxiety and depression because of past trauma which is another story.I'm from a middle class family to even explore new career path. Life is so hard. I wish there was some kind of miracle that could change it. Why life gotta be so hard. I'm a creative person. But everything is sooo blurry.

Sometimes I make efforts to believe in myself and then i look at all the people around me and realise how I could end up like them. It's nice to build a self confidence when everything at least going alright but now, here it is just a bleak foggy October morning in my life.

Sorry everyone didn't want to make y'alls day bad with this. I really wanted to share this with someone. I'm losing the battle. I'll keep living but wish I could've done something for myself. I was once a kid with such high hopes and now everything is starting shatter into pieces.

Again sorry everyone. I created this acc few minutes ago just to share it. Have a good night.

Please please pray for me.