u/lohonomo

Is this covered under like, handyman services? Have y'all had any success with Thumbtack or any other similar apps?

Thanks!

As many retirees are leaving FL as coming in at this point. The real estate market is getting crushed and home insurance premiums seem to only get more and more expensive. Something's got to give right?

Had another talk today with my boss about why I procrastinate and can't follow through with projects. Same exact discussion I've had with every single parent, teacher, and employer in my life.

My boss is growing increasingly frustrated with me. He wants me to give him a direct answer for why I continue to make the same mistakes and he gets even more frustrated by the fact that I dont have one. I cried at our last meeting. I've cried in front of him at least 3 times now because we keep having the same discussion.

I wanna tell him these are trauma responses and maladaptive coping mechanisms learned from a life time of complex child abuse and untreated neurodivergence because that's the truth. But then I'm worried that'll make it seem like I can't do the job at all. And I can, but I'm always gonna have maladaptive coping skills. I have less now than when I was younger but recovery is a lifelong process. And I'm also going through perimenopause which increases the symptoms of adhd, depression, and anxiety, sometimes to the point where my medication is effectively useless. But telling him this may get me fired. But not having a reasonable answer for him might also get me fired.

I can't afford to lose this job. I dont have any marketable skills so I can't find another job that'll pay as well as this job I lucked into and I'll legit be so fucked if I lose this job. It'll set back my mental health progress to a point that I fear I won't be able to recover from.

I'm silently crying at my desk, dreading meeting with my boss again in a couple hours to explain to him why I'm such a fucking failure. He's not letting it go. He demands a reasonable explanation for my behavior but that doesnt exist. I feel like I'm a teenager again, just white knuckling it through my parents lecture on how I'm a manipulative little bitch. But, unlike my parents, I can't just go nonverbal until they give up and send me to my room. I HAVE to engage! But whatever engagement I choose, and I have to choose, will lead to further punishment. But my psyche is already so fragile and I can feel a meltdown coming. I'm starting to feel overwhelmed with emotion, tears swelling in my eyes, the labored breathing, adrenaline pulsing. There's gonna be a meltdown. Can I suppress it until I get home or is this gonna happen in front of my boss? Im panicking. I need to get out of this.