u/lonesomesock4

I'm new to spell work and have been doing loads of research on and off for weeks but I'm still very confused on what spells to use for my complicated situation with my ex, and if it is even worth it to do the spells in my situation.

Basically she left me 8 months ago because she thought she was relocating (she never did) and was going through health issues. We have talked on and off since, some not good conversations, some ok conversations. She ended up blocking me on everything, and I'm 99% sure she has someone new. I'm not looking for people to lash me, I'm looking for simple advice on if it's too late to do any spells, because I know in this particular situation I would need more than spell, maybe even 3?

I also don't know if she has any love left for me. I would like to think so but idk. Being a beginner, I know that this would be a tall order for me, but I'm sort of desperate.

So basically I stalk my ex's tik tok account pretty frequently. On a burner account that I barely get on. She's bi and into women. I am also into women but even in my account I don't post about it at all really, maybe one repost. All of the sudden I'm getting flooded with lesbian and wlw content on the burner accounts fyp. Does this mean if you view someone's page so frequently that you will inherit the niche of their fyp? She doesn't repost about it either but maybe this means if you frequently view someone's page, you will start getting the niche of stuff they like or something on your fyp. Thoughts ?

Thinking of driving from Kentucky to the NJ show. I'll be going solo and I also went to the Cincy show solo. Is it a good venue and how many of you are going?

Broke up 4 months ago and I've been on a downward spiral ever since. It hasn't gotten better. Even got blackout drunk and called her like 80 times last week. Don't remember it at all. I've been crazy. Begged and pleaded, and have a lot of regret for how I acted when she ended things. I've been in therapy and I've tried every distraction and way to get better but it's not. I'm tired. Carrying a lot of shame. I wouldn't commit suicide but I definitely have had ideations daily. She hates me now and I can't accept that she will never come back. I've always had good intentions but I've ruined everything.

Idk wtf to do anymore. I don't wanna go on like this. Don't even know why I'm making this I guess I just need to vent.

I've been on 20mg Prozac for a little less than a month, but I've been very inconsistent and have missed days here and there due to relapsing on alcohol.. today I took my Prozac but have now taken 6 1/2 shots of Tito's vodka shooters. I feel fine now but wondering if I should be worried about myself..

Who's going to the cincy show this Saturday? Hopefully it's gonna be lit! Lifelong cudi fan, I even have a man on the moon tattoo reference and this is my first time seeing him live. Like many, I wish he was gonna be playing more of his old stuff but either way gonna vibe out and enjoy

I've been on Prozac 20mg for about a week and it has instantly made my life worse. This is my starting dose. I know this can be normal but this is ridiculous. I've averaged probably 2-4 hours of sleep a night, my heart feels like it's gonna explode out of my chest, my anxiety was already bad but now it's even worse. I feel spaced out and just so weird. If I do fall asleep it doesn't matter cause I'm just gonna wake up 30 mins to an hour later. This sucks and I'm exhausted but can't sleep. Also experiencing blurry vision. Just all around a terrible time