u/loosefuse420

currently 11 months or so on testosterone. i haven’t signed up for a gender identity clinic referral yet, as i just haven’t had the time/courage to do so. i finally think it’s time, and wanna get on actual prescribed testosterone, even if it’s a low dose.

i have no idea how to go about this, ive never actually gone to the gp on my own, nor do i know the right order to mention things.

how would i structure the appointment? should i ask for the referral or tell them im taking diy hrt first?

is there any phrasing i could use to maximise my chances? should i write a note beforehand and give it to them so i know ive said everything i need?

if that particular gp doesn’t prescribe diy T, do i switch doctors or should i accept that i don’t have a chance?

sorry for asking so many questions, i want to make sure i dont mess this up. if anyone can give me information about how their appointment went, that would be appreciated :)

this has been on my mind all day. last night, around 3am, my first - and favourite - ket plug messages me, saying he’s got ket in stock. i haven’t heard from him since january 2025. it’s been 2 years 2 days since i bought from him for the first time, the day my life went downhill. he never lost my number, despite being in jail and switching numbers. i almost relapsed a few weeks ago, i was in an awful place, but everyone was out at the time so i gave up in looking. great timing on his part. i’ve been so alone, anxious and depressed since my exams ended last month. now im looking for a reason to relapse, and a reason not to at the same time. i got a decent remote job and it’s bringing in money i have nothing to do with. i feel guilty even considering relapse.

i’ve been on high dose T gel since july 27th last year, i took a month break due to lack of access around december, but have been on it regularly since. i skipped my period last month, the month before it was late. its incredibly hot where i live at the moment, and tomorrow is supposed to be the hottest day of the year so far. i got cramps two hours ago and suspected it was just stress, but i go to the bathroom and im bleeding.

i was meant to go with another trans guy who recently came out to me and asked me to go with him, and im not sure how the night was going to go. i doubt anything serious, but it still sucks.

i can’t believe that it’s in such an inconvenient moment. it could’ve waited like 26 hours, when id be home after prom, safe to bleed in the comfort of my own home. i can’t do anything about it. i can’t stand tampons or really anything inside me, it’s not safe to bring a pad with me due to the fact im not obviously trans. i don’t know why now, especially because ive been on hormones for close to a year.

i suppose this is a few questions in one,

is it possible to go from a 1.5 year long addiction (20g per month) to only using on certain occasions? something like once per 2-3 weeks at most?

most of all, is it safe to do so? i’m less fearful of the risk of relapse/addiction, but more of the damage. i haven’t had a single symptom of bladder damage, cramps and so on, despite my extensive experience with this drug.

i’ve heard the “once an addict, always an addict” thing over and over again, however i have a small feeling i’d be able to handle myself. i’m aware this is sorta addict mentality, but the reason i started taking K excessively isnt something i think about anymore.

i don’t plan on buying nor using any, just curious if it’s possible for an addict to use at some point in the future (let’s say a year of sobriety in), without spiralling back to square one. i get that there’s no “healthy” relationship with drugs, im thinking more like, not fully avoiding it, but not doing it every day.

i’m an addict of almost 2 years, would go through 0.5-1g a day, sometimes more, and decided to quit at the start of this year. relapsed and returned to my usual ket schedule for two weeks after 17 days of sobriety, then quit again. it’s been almost 3 months since then.

while cleaning out some stuff i found a tiny bag with maybe 3 bumps worth (much less than what id do all at once during my binges) and i put it away while finishing off. it had been on my mind since i found it, so i eventually caved and had a small amount that i thought wouldn’t get me high, just wanted to have a taste i guess. turns out i genuinely felt it, enough to make me dizzy. is it possible that permatolerance isn’t always the case? or could it possibly be placebo? i don’t plan on buying/using any more, just curious.