Sometimes I feel angry at people with anorexia
I know the title might come across as hateful, but I think sometimes I genuinely feel that way deep down. I know it isn’t healthy, but I feel so much envy mixed with anger toward people with anorexia. Sometimes I catch myself thinking about how “lucky” they are, and I know that’s disturbing.
I’m at a normal weight for someone with bulimia, and I’m so tired of eating, feeling guilty about it, and then just throwing everything up afterward. Sometimes I wish I didn’t have an eating disorder at all, or that I had a different one.
I don’t know. I just feel exhausted by all of this.