u/lovermisaamane

Hi, a little about me: I'm 22 and new to the area, looking at apartments and university. I want to try and meet people (21-30) just for daily fun activities.

Such as playing card games irl, getting matcha, and going to the museum.

or just talking and walking trails or even going to watch a new movie

i want to explore houston but don't want to keep going everywhere alone.

I am currently in school and work full time, but when I'm free, I want to be doing something.

Would like to experience the nightlife in the future—once i meet a good group of people to go with.

I know i should be upset but I'm not. I am a straight female in my 20s. One body, one relationship my whole life—never looked for men. But I downloaded discord when i moved to a new state, and this guy and I hit it off. Not as in a relationship, but i genuinely thought he was a chill cool dude. (Obviously I'm going off of vibes as i do not judge people and i enjoy knowing people for who they are and their flaws.) Like im not looking for perfect i enjoy regular people.

Anywho kicked it off; he would talk to me, message me, and call me everynight- because he enjoys sleep calls. Once again i was down—no weird vibes or bad energy. But dude... I obviously don't enjoy calling every night, but it's not an issue to do so. Anywho, i woke up this morning and the dude starting going on a weird rant—like negativity as soon as i wake up—like, genuinely, dude seemed like he was having a manic episode

Anywho, the dude goes on to say that he doesn't want to talk every night, to which I reply, "No worries." So then i ask for, like, an understatement—like, do you not want to talk at all, like i should lose your contact, or do you just not want to talk like personally? As in you just want to keep it normally mutuals.

I ask this, and then he goes, "I wish you would just delete discord and give me your number." -- Like what the actual fuck, you say you don't want to talk to me, then say you know I'm going to be the best wife and I'm too good to be true," and he knows he's regretting this moment. Idk—I know this is not normal, and he obviously has trauma or just past relationship issues. But like how weird…

I am more so intrigued that i enjoyed it. Like, what does that say about me? What about him did i actually like? I feel like every time I give someone my time they are creeped out by me and question if there is something wrong with me. It pisses me off. Maybe it's because i just recently came to a new area, and i stick out like a sore thumb. Maybe I'm projecting. I don't know; I feel like i love myself. i stay true to my morals, but i look so normal—people are reluctant to speak to me or assume I'm a bitch… idek what I'm talking about anymore. I'm deleting discord, and I'm just going to go to work and school and focus on my health. However, i deep down wish i had friends or just genuine people in my life. I will continue to pray and live my life through my morals. But every day it just seems like I'm meant to live in solitude. Maybe I'm putting this on here because I'm new to the online world, I'm new to Discord, and I'm new to meeting people that aren't just authentic. I guess this rant really was never about the guy but more about why I am so discontent with being alone; it feels pathetic. But I mean, I just left my hometown, with all of my friends and family that was close-knit, so this is a natural feeling, but i just hate it.

I know i should be upset but I'm not. I am a straight female in my 20s. One body, one relationship my whole life—never looked for men. But I downloaded discord when i moved to a new state, and this guy and I hit it off. Not as in a relationship, but i genuinely thought he was a chill cool dude. (Obviously I'm going off of vibes as i do not judge people and i enjoy knowing people for who they are and their flaws.) Like im not looking for perfect i enjoy regular people.

Anywho kicked it off; he would talk to me, message me, and call me everynight- because he enjoys sleep calls. Once again i was down—no weird vibes or bad energy. But dude... I obviously don't enjoy calling every night, but it's not an issue to do so. Anywho, i woke up this morning and the dude starting going on a weird rant—like negativity as soon as i wake up—like, genuinely, dude seemed like he was having a manic episode

Anywho, the dude goes on to say that he doesn't want to talk every night, to which I reply, "No worries." So then i ask for, like, an understatement—like, do you not want to talk at all, like i should lose your contact, or do you just not want to talk like personally? As in you just want to keep it normally mutuals.

I ask this, and then he goes, "I wish you would just delete discord and give me your number." -- Like what the actual fuck, you say you don't want to talk to me, then say you know I'm going to be the best wife and I'm too good to be true," and he knows he's regretting this moment. Idk—I know this is not normal, and he obviously has trauma or just past relationship issues. But like how weird…

I am more so intrigued that i enjoyed it. Like, what does that say about me? What about him did i actually like? I feel like every time I give someone my time they are creeped out by me and question if there is something wrong with me. It pisses me off. Maybe it's because i just recently came to a new area, and i stick out like a sore thumb. Maybe I'm projecting. I don't know; I feel like i love myself. i stay true to my morals, but i look so normal—people are reluctant to speak to me or assume I'm a bitch… idek what I'm talking about anymore. I'm deleting discord, and I'm just going to go to work and school and focus on my health. However, i deep down wish i had friends or just genuine people in my life. I will continue to pray and live my life through my morals. But every day it just seems like I'm meant to live in solitude. Maybe I'm putting this on here because I'm new to the online world, I'm new to Discord, and I'm new to meeting people that aren't just authentic. I guess this rant really was never about the guy but more about why I am so discontent with being alone; it feels pathetic. But I mean, I just left my hometown, with all of my friends and family that was close-knit, so this is a natural feeling, but i just hate it.