u/lovestar141

Hello all, I am coming here a bit blindly after a trusted friend told me about these groups. I was able to find quite a few locally. I just want a bit of general info about what to expect from a meeting? I am getting out of a relationship with an addict/alcoholic after growing up with an alcoholic dad. This sounds like exactly the type of group I’d feel comfortable around and can relate to. I guess my question is what to expect at a meeting?

I never thought it would happen. It’s been two years of abuse. She’s an addict and it took me too long to realize. I’ve just begged for her love too hard to where it makes her hate me. I feel so dumb. I walked into her house late tonight and she shoved me out with her hand around my neck. I feel so so stupid. I just wanted to show her love. I didn’t listen when she told me she was going to bed because I thought it would be okay to come snuggle. Yeah we have been fighting. Really really bad. I guess she was coked up and also mad at me. I’m so sad. She told me that I was scum of the earth, that when she killed herself it was my fault and she would make sure the world knew it, that she hated me amongst other awful things.

I used to get upset and say mean things, maybe a few months into dating until I realized I’d never want to intentionally hurt her. It should’ve never happened. But for her it’s never stopped. She has spit on my face on a plane twice now. I don’t know why I’ve been so idiotic and blind to see how she feels about me. Regardless of her feeling bad and wanting my attention. I feel so stupid. Tonight I hope was the last straw for me. I’ve seen my mom be abused emotionally and physically and I can’t let that be me too. I’ve hurt her too, in other ways. I really wanted her to be the one. I’m so sad.

Me (24) and my partner (30) broke up and decided to go no contact. This relationship was huge to me. I think too big though as I put them before me. I don’t have the energy to get into details but right now it feels like my world is collapsing. They are my soulmate and we both have some huge personal things to get through but I’m not sure I can go on. I know my love and want for them isn’t healthy, but as of right now it’s hard to remember who I was before them and picture a life without my person. :( I cry everytime I think about anything pertaining to it. I just want to crawl into a ball and go to sleep every single day.