u/lunadelaira

My whole life has been really tough. I'm 25 and I've already been through way more than I think people should've at my age. Not that my life is worse than anyone else's, just in the sense that I think things could've been way easier and that most of that didn't need to happen for me to grow. I'm at a point where I'm so tired of having to 'cope' with things by myself & I want to be okay, so I am actively trying to be better

But the thing is, the ways to process what I've dealt with are all SO inaccessible. Either it costs more money than I have or requires me to travel (which I can't do, oddly enough because of my traumas)

This was sparked because it's 3am and I've just attempted to sign up to one of those online therapy services. It was genuinely a third of my monthly income when I got to the pricing page? It's like I'm being locked out of being normal because I'm poor & I find it so disheartening

Free self help books online haven't worked for me either. I feel like I've crammed my brain full of understanding of how brains work but I have no idea how to actually put the teachings into practise. I know what my problems are, I can identify the root of my issues, I know where things stem from and (in theory) how to fix them, but if you ask me the steps I need to do to actually process the events... no clue! I love learning and it was a nice experience to go through but ultimately hasn't done a lot for me

So now I don't know what to do or where to turn. And it sucks knowing that I have the potential to be a proper functioning person but not the actual ability to get there. I wish there were more available options for services or things we can do so I can live my life the way I should be and not be completely emotionally and physically stunted with no clue where I'm going

Hello! I'm a fantasy worldbuilder writing scripts set in my project.

I'm currently working on a script about the discovery of one of the continents. A character gets in a boat and travels until he finds land, then integrates with the culture of the natives. At the beginning of the journey, he uses his 'English' name (August) and then when he settles into the new culture, he changes it to be a more appropriate name for the setting (Auran).

When writing the script, I'd say about a quarter of it is August and the other three are Auran, but he's introduced as August.

When writing the script, especially to show his dialogue, should I stick through the whole thing using August, begin with Auran despite it changing later, or swap when he switches names and use both? TYIA!