had my first med flight tonight

got toned out to a “low mechanism” crash… dude had bilateral tib-fib fractures and right arm arterial bleeding. obvious knee dislocation in the left leg and crazy hematomas on the right. got hit by a pickup truck, and the driver was drunk of course. it was honestly the best case scenario, dude was talking to us and feeling everything but he was in so much pain that my medic pushed 100 of fentanyl. i dunno what happened but i just sort of tunnel visioned and did whatever my medics needed from me, but as a basic i feel like i didn’t do enough.
i’ve only been in ems, let alone on an ALS rig, for about a month now, if that. we of course didn’t have a pelvic splint on the truck so we had to make one with a sheet which was the biggest thing i helped with. i guess i just need advice on what i should jump into first with traumas like that. we had 4 people on our crew, two medics, one A-EMT and a basic which is me lol, so vitals and whatnot were already taken care of by the time i even got to do anything since we did have a second patient i had to clear. i’ve always been told that vitals and airway are the two things i should worry about as a basic. but what about in this scenario? i don’t like stepping over medics or jumping into stuff that might cause my medic to mess up. i might just have imposter syndrome right now, because i feel like i suck at my job.

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u/m0rb1d_b4by — 4 days ago
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My tree 🥲 Just glad it didn’t land on my car 😩

crown point by buddy and pals

u/m0rb1d_b4by — 2 months ago

“you need to love yourself first”lmao if only there were anything to love

i fucking hate when people say that stupid shit. if there were anything to love i’d be loved already. not just by myself but by others. i have genuinely nothing to love. i’m fat, im ugly, my face is the definition of repugnant. my body is disgusting even though ive lost 115 pounds. my personality is shit and i have no hobbies. i only enjoy things im good at, and im not good at anything, so therefore what hobbies could i possibly have. literally sold my ps4 because of how terrible i am at video games, so terrible that i cant even enjoy them. literally the only thing i enjoy is the gym and thats just because i enjoy punishing myself for being this disgusting to begin with. no matter how much weight i lose my face is always going to be abhorrent, clearly. i have nothing going for me in any way shape or form and generally just wish i were 💀

u/m0rb1d_b4by — 3 months ago

no matter how much i lose my face and features clearly aren’t going to change so idk what else to even do. i’ve traveled everywhere i’ve wanted, finished school, have a job i love, partied myself out… so if there’s no love for me in the world what else is there to live for? i’ve done all the other things so literally what is the point.

u/m0rb1d_b4by — 6 months ago