u/maces88

"Wish I Was Dumb"

BPM: ~115

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Intro:

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

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(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, d-d-d-dumb, dumb-)

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Verse 1:

Got some brain cells to lose, got too many

My thoughts try to break loose, got too many

I try to get up, my head too heavy

Someone run me down, lobotomize me

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Verse 2:

Wake in the morning waiting for the night

Fight inside my mind all day just to hide it

Burn three joints just to borrow some quiet

Shake me awake when it's time to take my hit

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Pre-Hook:

Pass the glass, knock a few thoughts off the top

Buy a few seconds when the volume drops

When I go to sleep, dreams take it all over

Hope I wake up just a little bit simpler

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Hook:

Wish I was dumb

Shut my mind down

Shut it the fuck up

Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb

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Post-Hook:

Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb

(D-d-umb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb

(D-d-dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb-)

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Verse 3:

Days pass, past plays through my head on repeat

I can see the future coming at me

I can see the traps set up to trip me

That won't help me, no, won't help me

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Verse 4:

Oh, my brain ain't supposed to be this way

Took benzos to feel ok, took my life away

So alone, gonna turn to smoke, leave no trace

Still not gonna make this pain go away, ay

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Pre-Hook:

Already hit my lowest - it is what it is

Now I'm a broken person - work in pieces

Slow it down - time is flowing way too fast for me

Yeah, wish I was dumb - maybe then I'd be happy

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Hook:

Wish I was dumb

Shut my mind down

Shut the fuck up

Numb my brain up

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Outro:

Wish I was dumb

Slow as this drum

Numb me all up

Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb

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(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, d-d-dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, d-d-dumb, dumb)

"Wish I Was Dumb" (title typo)

BPM: ~115

Intro:

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

-

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, d-d-d-dumb, dumb-)

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Verse 1:

Got some brain cells to lose, got too many

My thoughts try to break loose, got too many

I try to get up, my head too heavy

Someone run me down, lobotomize me

-

Verse 2:

Wake in the morning waiting for the night

Fight inside my mind all day just to hide it

Burn three joints just to borrow some quiet

Shake me awake when it's time to take my hit

-

Pre-Hook:

Pass the glass, knock a few thoughts off the top

Buy a few seconds when the volume drops

When I go to sleep, dreams take it all over

Hope I wake up just a little bit simpler

-

Hook:

Wish I was dumb

Shut my mind down

Shut the fuck up

Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb

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Post-Hook:

Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb

(D-d-umb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb

(D-d-dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb-)

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Verse 3:

Days pass, past plays through my head on repeat

I can see the future coming at me

I can see the traps set up to trip me

That won't help me, no, won't help me

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Verse 4:

Oh, my brain ain't supposed to be this way

Took benzos to feel ok, took my life away

So alone, gonna turn to smoke, leave no trace

Still not gonna make this pain go away, ay

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Pre-Hook:

Already hit my lowest - it is what it is

Now I'm a broken person - work in pieces

Slow it down - time is flowing way too fast for me

Yeah, wish I was dumb - maybe then I'd be happy

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Hook:

Wish I was dumb

Shut my mind down

Numb my brain up

Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb

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Outro:

Wish I was dumb

Slow as this drum

Numb me all up

Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb

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(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, d-d-dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)

(Dumb, dumb, d-d-dumb, dumb)

TW: depression, drugs, suicide

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Voice of an angel, soul of one too
Feels too much, lies 'cause she can't trust you
Say it'll get better, hasn't so far
Fades into the pain, fades away

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Oh, it's getting late in the day
One last sunset for the brave
Before she leaves and flies away
One last sunset left to save

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She hangs brightly, trying to reach Nirvana
No bang like Cobain, she fades away quietly

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Statue on the edge of a balcony
Black moon at midnight, cold rain falling
She stares over the railing, longing
Rain washes away the tears she cries

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Still, for hours, shapes and lights move strangely
Mistook a shadow for her savior
Knows no one is coming to save her

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Fading...

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Pills fill her brain, sadness floats away
She didn't mean to, but now she can't move
Holding her hand up, trying to touch the light
Breathing slows and lightens
She knows but doesn't fight

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She hangs brightly, going to Nirvana
No bang like Cobain, she fades away in silence

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She fell gently, flew up to the sky
Turned into a new constellation
Simplify her into somebody's lesson
Seven stars, only seven pieces of her person

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Voice of an angel, gone too soon
Didn't even have a white lighter
Drawing in the night won't be bright enough
For them to remember her fire

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Fading away...

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She hangs brightly, flying in Nirvana
No bang like Cobain, she fades away
Soon as the dawn rises, she fades away...

TW: depression, drugs, suicide

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Voice of an angel, soul of one too
Feels too much, lies 'cause she can't trust you
Say it'll get better, hasn't so far
Fades into the pain, fades away

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Oh, it's getting late in the day
One last sunset for the brave
Before she leaves and flies away
One last sunset left to save

-

She hangs brightly, trying to reach Nirvana
No bang like Cobain, she fades away quietly

-

Statue on the edge of a balcony
Black moon at midnight, cold rain falling
She stares over the railing, longing
Rain washes away the tears she cries

-

Still for hours, shapes and lights move strangely
Mistook a shadow for her savior
Knows no one is coming to save her

-

Fading...

-

Pills fill her brain, sadness floats away
She didn't mean to, but now she can't move
Holding her hand up tryna touch the light
Breathing slows and lightens
She knows but doesn't fight

-

She hangs brightly, going to Nirvana
No bang like Cobain, she fades away in silence

-

Fell quiet, flew up to the sky
Turned into a new constellation
Simplify her into a lesson
Seven stars, only seven pieces of her person

-

Voice of an angel, gone too soon
Didn't even have a white lighter
Drawing in the night won't be bright enough
For them to remember her fire

-

Fading away...

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She hangs brightly, flying in Nirvana
No bang like Cobain, she fades away
Soon as the dawn rise, she fades away...

(Sippin' on the smoke)

(Exhale extra slow)

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Starin' at the sky from my balcony again

End of every day always go the same way

Yeah, I'm cross-faded, fuckin' isolated

At least I'm fuckin' medicated, ay, ay

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Flick of my lighter, smoke rise with the fire

Everybody movin' on, I'm still an outsider

Loner to the bone, nobody callin' my phone

Get high to feel alright, tryna make it til the sun rise

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Sippin' on the smoke

Exhale extra slow, slow

Tryna make it last longer

Can't let the feeling go, no

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The night don't feel right with no stars in the sky

Fly me up above the clouds, wanna stay that high

City lights shine bright, nobody can see me

I'm just the ghost of the person I used to be

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Yeah, yeah, look at me

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So fuckin' independent unless we talking xannies

Might be gone by the dawn, guess we'll have to see

You won't see me at the bar, in the car, on the streets

You can catch me on my balcony smokin' all my weed

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(Inhale)

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Same location, hoodie from goodwill

Feelin' the highs, but feelin' so low still

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(Hold)

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Same location, hooked at a standstill

Feelin' the highs, can't even feel the thrill

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(Blow)

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Flick of my lighter, smoke rise with the fire

Hit up King Midas, told him turn me to gold stone

Stoner to the bone, reachin' out slow motion

Lit up, need that green like O2, even when I'm frozen

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Yeah, yeah, you already know

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(Same highs, same lows)

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Sippin' on the smoke

Exhale extra slow, slow, slow

Need to make it last longer

Can't let the feeling go

-

(Same highs, same lows...)

Can't let the feeling go

(Same highs, same lows...)

Can't let the feeling go...

(Sippin' on the smoke)

(Exhale extra slow)

-

Starin' at the sky from my balcony again

End of every day always go the same way

Yeah, I'm cross-faded, fuckin' isolated

At least I'm fuckin' medicated, ay, ay

-

Flick of my lighter, smoke rise with the fire

Everybody movin' on, I'm still an outsider

Loner to the bone, nobody callin' my phone

Get high to feel alright, tryna make it til the sun rise

-

Sippin' on the smoke

Exhale extra slow, slow

Tryna make it last longer

Can't let the feeling go, no

-

The night don't feel right with no stars in the sky

Fly me up above the clouds, wanna stay that high

City lights shine bright, but nobody can see me

I'm just the ghost of the person I used to be

-

Yeah, yeah, look at me

-

So fuckin' independent unless we talking xannies

Might be gone by the dawn, guess we'll have to see

You won't see me at the bar, in the car, on the streets

You can catch me on my balcony smokin' all my weed

-

(Inhale)

-

Same location, hoodie from goodwill

Feelin' the highs, but feelin' so low still

-

(Hold)

-

Same location, hooked at a standstill

Feelin' the highs, can't even feel the thrill

-

(Blow)

-

Flick of my lighter, smoke rise with the fire

Hit up King Midas, told him turn me to gold stone

Stoner to the bone, reachin' out slow motion

Lit up, need that green like O2, even when I'm frozen

-

Yeah, yeah, you already know

-

(Same highs, same lows)

(Same highs, same lows)

-

Sippin' on the smoke

Exhale extra slow, slow, slow

Need to make it last longer

Can't let the feeling go

-

(Same highs, same lows)

Can't let the feeling go

(Same highs, same lows...)

Can't let the feeling go...

Looking for constructive feedback or opinions. Style is alt-rap / emo rap vibes like mac miller 070 shake or kid cudi or smthn.

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(Wanna get high, yeah)

(Wanna get high, yeah)

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Wanna get high, yeah, escape from my reality

Wanna fade away til my day dreams all surroundin' me

Free climb, freefall into one of my fantasies

Best ones always got you right there next to me

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Sometimes I wonder how my life would be

If I never ditched that fake town, posers painted it pretty

Didn't exist there, no one ever really knew me

Didn't belong there, no, that wasn't the real me

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Three years in the future, I'm a sad ex-loser

Fight to move forward, step forward, little closer

Close as I can be, my past keep pace with me

Chase me down like Sisyphus's boulder, knock me over

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(Yeah, yeah)

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You know, rock bottom was a shit place to be

Parents turned crazy, all my friends ghosted me

Faded through all my days, all them drugs in my brain

Every day the same low, fuck no, time to go

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(Go, go...)

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Wanna get high, yeah, drive away A.S.A.P

Wanna drive away til the mountains all around me

Free climb, freefall into whoever I'm supposed to be

Ride all night long just to find my personality

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Yeah, six thousand five hundred miles, I don't give a damn

Cross-country road trip in my mini-van

I don't need nobody in the passenger seat

Just me, my weed, and a kickass beat

-

Blastin' music so loud, all l feel is bass and speed

Blowin' loud clouds out the car window

Colorado highways settin' me free

Nobody sayin' nothin', they not fuckin' with me

-

Haha,

Almost got arrested but they couldn't catch me

-

Yeah, ended up at the edge of the country

When the land stopped, the ocean just mocked me

Cause all them problems still be right behind me

To be honest, most of them be deep inside me

-

Yeah, good times can never last forever, you know

All roads end, might be startin' to miss my ringtone

Lost and alone, all them drugs in my brain

Just wanna be happy and leave behind the pain

-

(Pain, pain...)

-

Wanna get high, yeah, fly away A.S.A.P

Wanna fly away til all new skies are surroundin' me

Free climb, freefall to wherever I'm supposed to be

Found then lost myself again like Orpheus and Eurydice

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Yeah, this my fuckin' Odyssey

(Yeah, this my fuckin' Odyssey)

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Six thousand five hundred miles, I don't give a damn

Flyin' cross the ocean to a new home - oh damn

Flyin' the sky so high, I haven't even had a hit

Got all I need - three bags, one seat, economy ticket

-

Crossed the whole fuckin' world, I'm far away for real now

No more paper houses, this city is for real now

Fell in love, my life be changin' in new ways lately

Maybe I'm startin' to feel a little less empty

-

Got the girl, got the view, got the life I dreamed about

Funny, my issues still racin' me, still breakin' me down

Still wanna get high, get the pressure off my mind

Fucked things up, but I'm gonna fix them this time

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Wanna get strong, yeah, so I don't ever wanna run

Thought I could start all over, my mind couldn't come

Know I got a long road, long flight, long fight to go

Baby, need you right there next to me, you're my home

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Yeah, this my fuckin' Odyssey

(Yeah, this my fuckin' Odyssey)

Looking for constructive feedback or opinions. Style is alt-rap / emo rap vibes like mac miller 070 shake or kid cudi or smthn.

-

(Wanna get high, yeah)

(Wanna get high, yeah)

-

Wanna get high, yeah, escape from my reality

Wanna fade away til my day dreams all surroundin' me

Free climb, freefall into one of my fantasies

Best ones always got you right there next to me

-

Sometimes I wonder how my life would be

If I never ditched that fake town, posers painted it pretty

Didn't exist there, no one ever really knew me

Didn't belong there, no, that wasn't the real me

-

Three years in the future, I'm a sad ex-loser

Fight to move forward, step forward, little closer

Close as I can be, my past keep pace with me

Chase me down like Sisyphus's boulder, knock me over

-

(Yeah, yeah)

-

You know, rock bottom was a shit place to be

Parents turned crazy, all my friends ghosted me

Faded through all my days, all them drugs in my brain

Every day the same low, fuck no, time to go

-

(Go, go...)

-

Wanna get high, yeah, drive away A.S.A.P

Wanna drive away til the mountains all around me

Free climb, freefall into whoever I'm supposed to be

Ride all night long just to find my personality

-

Yeah, six thousand five hundred miles, I don't give a damn

Cross-country road trip in my mini-van

I don't need nobody in the passenger seat

Just me, my weed, and a kickass beat

-

Blastin' music so loud, all l feel is bass and speed

Blowin' loud clouds out the car window

Colorado highways settin' me free

Nobody sayin' nothin', they not fuckin' with me

-

Haha,

Almost got arrested but they couldn't catch me

-

Yeah, ended up at the edge of the country

When the land stopped, the ocean just mocked me

Cause all them problems still be right behind me

To be honest, most of them be deep inside me

-

Yeah, good times can never last forever, you know

All roads end, might be startin' to miss my ringtone

Lost and alone, all them drugs in my brain

Just wanna be happy and leave behind the pain

-

(Pain, pain...)

-

Wanna get high, yeah, fly away A.S.A.P

Wanna fly away til all new skies are surroundin' me

Free climb, freefall to wherever I'm supposed to be

Found then lost myself again like Orpheus and Eurydice

-

Yeah, this my fuckin' Odyssey

(Yeah, this my fuckin' Odyssey)

-

Six thousand five hundred miles, I don't give a damn

Flyin' cross the ocean to a new home - oh damn

Flyin' the sky so high, I haven't even had a hit

Got all I need - three bags, one seat, economy ticket

-

Crossed the whole fuckin' world, I'm far away for real now

No more paper houses, this city is for real now

Fell in love, my life be changin' in new ways lately

Maybe I'm startin' to feel a little less empty

-

Got the girl, got the view, got the life I dreamed about

Funny, my issues still racin' me, still breakin' me down

Still wanna get high, get the pressure off my mind

Fucked things up, but I'm gonna fix them this time

-

Wanna get strong, yeah, so I don't ever wanna run

Thought I could start all over, my mind couldn't come

Know I got a long road, long flight, long fight to go

Baby, need you right there next to me, you're my home

-

Yeah, this my fuckin' Odyssey

(Yeah, this my fuckin' Odyssey)

People expect me to act normal when I'm dyin'

Tell me to keep it inside, stop talkin', keep it quiet

Can't do nothin' about it but keep tryin' to hide it

Screamin' my brains out but the screams come out silent

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All this hidin', lyin', cryin' I been goin' through

Tryna make it through a day without breakin' down on you

Tryna make it through today without losin' my mind, too

Been tryin' so damn long, don't know what else to even do

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Why we fightin' every night, baby, this don't feel right

Can read you like a book, but my words can't come out right

Been tryna fight for us, but tell me who's fightin' for me

Been broken into pieces but nobody can fuckin' see

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You fallin' out of love with me

But I'm still in love with you

I'm still in love with you

Baby, we got problems

I know you know we do

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No I'm never thinkin' straight, know that don't help nothin', don't know anything, fuck

Stuck frozen, slow motion, dissociatin' til I'm nothin'

Wishin' I could run away from my own brain, too much pain and shame

Painful to say but if we bein' honest we both got me to blame

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Most of what's wrong with me is temporary, probably

Least that's what them doctors told me in 2023

No wonder you losin' hope for me

Hate bein' less than what you need 

Really tryna fix myself, can you wait a lil' longer, baby?

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You fallin' out of love with me

But I'm still in love with you

I'm still in love with you

Baby, we got problems

But I'm still fightin' for you

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Gotta stop fightin' every night, baby, this ain't right

Can read you like a book, but my words can't come out right

Been tryna fight for us, need to see you fightin' for me

Been broken into pieces but nobody can fuckin' see

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VERSE

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VERSE

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You fallin' out of love with me

But I'm still in love with you

I'm still in love with you

Baby, we got problems

I'll always keep fightin' for you

Now I see you fightin' for me too

I don't know, I don't know

No, I don't know anything

This world too big for me

And people way too confusing

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My mind is fucked from all the shit I been through

Yeah, I'm sure all them drugs didn't help too

Can't control myself, can't control what I do

Say things I don't mean, baby, I'm bad for you

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Don't know what I'm doin' in my life except fuckin' it up

Never meant to be a fucked up addict

Maybe I missed the manual cause this shit ain't automatic

Gotta take pills just to be less problematic

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Nah, I'm not even being dramatic

My problems critical, chemical, systematic

Everything fine, my brain still feel the panic

Gotta smoke to calm down, bad habit

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One second I'm a loser, just some trash on the floor

Next I'm the king of the world, but no one want me no more

Whoever flippin' the switch better go fuck off

Tired of waking up not knowing who I am no more

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I don't know, I don't know

No, I don't know anything

This world too big for me

And people way too confusing

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Maybe I missed the manual

Cause this shit ain't automatic

Everybody make it look so easy

So why life feel like rocket science?

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My brain got all fucked up, wish it wasn't like this

Got my wires all twisted, just broken switches

Brain won't work the same, this ain't how I'm built to be

All these glitches breakin' me down 

Til no one wants to be around me

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One second I'm a loser, just some trash on the floor

Next I'm the king of the world, but no one want me no more

Whoever flippin' the switch better go fuck off

Tired of waking up not knowing who I am no more

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I don't know, I don't know

No, I don't know anything

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All this static blockin' all the signals

Tryin' to stabilize but I'm split, two sides

Tried so many times to fix myself, didn't work

Still can't recognize myself, still in the dark

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Can't do this no more, can't live like this

Think I might be too broken to fix

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I missed the manual

This shit ain't automatic

Everybody else movin’ forward fine

While I’m stuck on the side of the road in my mind

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No I don't know anything

I don’t- I don’t- I don’t know anything

Yeah, yeah

Alright y'all, this is a true story.

No, for real this time, this shit for real.

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Sittin’ at the edge of the cliffside

Sun up high, nothin’ but clear blue sky

Nice breeze, sea waves flowin’ below

So why the fuck am I still feelin’ so low?

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Lighter in my hand, edge of the cliff

Bout to spark one up

That's when he shows up

Mystical traveling man

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He walks up to me and says “Hello”

White hawaiian shirt, long dreadlocks

We start talkin’ and hey, this guy kinda rocks

Been all over the whole world, just livin’ his life

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No car, just a hike and a bike, like Forest Gump

East coast America, Vermont to Virginia

Walkin' all the way from France to China

122 degrees, yeah, crossed the Sahara

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He says, the simple the best

Don't be makin’ everything so complicated

Your mind has the power, just gotta be activated

Yeah, simple the best, simple the best, yeah

Yeah, simple the best, simple the best

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He says, live the way you want to

Not the way the rest do, not how they tell you

Life is in the moment, the moment is right now

Don't wait for tomorrow when you still got today, hey

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Lighter in my hand, edge of the cliff

Bout to spark one up

That's when he shows up

Like a sign from up above

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Smokin’ green, gettin’ lit, I offer him a hit

He been sober for 14 years, fuckin’ goals

Says drugs control you til you can't stop, can't quit

I know it's true, every day I'm feelin' it

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Talkin’ bout life til it's time say goodbye

He says, maybe we'll meet again one day

Somewhere else in the world, some way

Then he walked into the sunlight like Jesus, ay

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Left me wonderin', why me, why there

How'd he know what I needed to hear

Last thing he said was stay strong

I dunno, maybe he can sense a lost soul

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Mystical traveling man

Hope you keep walkin’, keep goin’

Keep livin’ the way you want to

Hope I start livin’ more like you

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Mystical traveling man

True story, man.

- Hook 1:

Wanna get high, yeah, escape from my reality

Wanna fade away til my daydreams are surroundin' me

Freeclimb, freefall into one of my fantasies

Best ones always have you right there next to me

- Verse 1:

Sometimes I wonder how my life would be

If I never left that fake town, posers painted it pretty

Never belonged there, no, that wasn't the real me

Still don't belong, yeah, still not really free

Least I'm movin' forward, steppin' forward one step closer

Close as I can be with these memories keepin' pace with me

- Verse 2:

Yeah, you know, rock bottom is a shit place to be

Parents turned crazy, all my friends ghosted me

Fadin' through the days, all these drugs in my brain

Nothin' to hope for, no one to hold up for no more

Wanna get outta here, climb outta this new low

- Hook 2:

Wanna get high, yeah, drive away from my reality

Wanna fade away til my daydreams are surroundin' me

Freeclimb, freefall into one of my fantasies

Best ones always have you right there next to me

- Bridge 1:

6,500 miles, I don't give a damn

Cross-country road trip in my mini-van

I don't need nobody in the passenger seat

Just me, my weed, and a kickass beat

- Verse 3:

Blastin' music so loud, all I feel is bass and speed

Smokin' clouds out the car window

Colorado highways settin' me free

Nobody sayin' nothin', they not fuckin' with me

Almost got arrested, but those bitches couldn't catch me

- Verse 4:

Yeah, ended up at the edge of the country

When the land stopped, the ocean just mocked me

Cause all them problems still be right behind me

To be honest, most of them be deep inside me

- Verse 5:

Yeah, good times never last forever, you know

All roads end, kinda startin' to miss my ringtone

Stumblin' through my thoughts, all these drugs in my brain

Just wanna be livin' happy, ain't goin' home, no more pain

- Hook 3:

Wanna get high, yeah, fly away from my reality

Wanna fade away til my daydreams are surroundin' me

Freeclimb, freefall into one of my fantasies

Best ones always have you right there next to me

- Bridge 2:

6,500 miles, I don't give a damn

Flyin' cross the world, new home, oh damn

Flyin' in the sky so high, I haven't even had a hit

Got everything I need - four bags, one seat, one badass fit

- Verse 6:

Cross the world, I'm far away for real now

No more paper houses, no, this city is for real now

Fell in love, life be changin' in a new way lately

Think I'm startin' to feel a little less empty

- Verse 7:

Got the girl, got the view, got the life I used to dream about

Funny how my issues still racin' me, still breakin' me down

Still wanna get high, get the pressure off my mind

Kinda fucked things up, but I'm gonna fix them this time

- Outro:

Wanna get so strong that I don't ever gotta run

Did a lot of stupid shit, yeah, had some fuckin' fun

Thought I could get away but my mind couldn't come

Still got a long road, long flight, long fight to go

Maybe I'll let y'all know how that goes, maybe no.