u/magnoliasyrupatprada

I have many doubts about this college but also the program being so short definitely need some motivation !

My ex-boyfriend sexually assaulted me, and I'm scared to call it what it is or even say that it is.

He called me over to his house in 2025, like a day or two after he had taken me on a date in which he spent the whole date sexually harassing me and doing things like trying to get me to sit on his lap. I should've left that day, but I was lonely.

Anyways, when I came to his house, it was for us to watch a movie. I even wore his shorts to get comfortable because I was in jeans. He would constantly kiss me and touch me, and I'd say, "Stop," and "No." He eventually just randomly started doing it to me until I eventually got a little aroused.

He took his pants off, got a condom out, and eventually this led to him trying to penetrate me. I'm a virgin, and it got to a point where he started to sort of force himself into me. I told him to stop because it hurt, but he didn't until I hit him.

After that day, he ghosted me and admitted to sexually assaulting me over text, stating that he knew he was hurting me but kept going and that he was sick in the head.

I sat with this feeling the whole year until it finally consumed me. I tried to reach out and talk to him, or at least hoped that I could get him to admit to sexually assaulting me again. Even though I knew that he did, I just needed him to say it again.

He then threatened to call the police on me and get a restraining order. I shut down to the point that my family thought I was going to end my life.

Some days, I just want to post his number online and tell everyone to go after him, but I wanted to tell my story, and I know I'm not alone.