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And it pisses me off so much when it’s at the end too. You made me read all that just to tell me you didn’t do shit? Go away

But I mean it’s not like I’m reading it anyway oops

I never thought I’d be making a sad-ish post like this but here I am. Sometimes I wish I never became a shifter. I don’t know who I’d be without shifting but I really honestly wish I never found out about it or became an anti that brushed it off. A life full of fun and happiness and freedom is waiting for me where I can be my true self and be with the ones I love but nope! For some reason my mind can’t comprehend what anyone says and it’s just not working for me. I don’t think I have it in me to quit considering my situation but oh I wish I could move on. I know it’ll all be worth it when I get there but what good is that when it sucks now? I hope this doesn’t demotivate anyone but I really needed to get this out

So here’s what happened

Had a horrible headache so I decided to rest for some time. Did a counting method where I started at 1 and then 100. 2 and 99. 3 and 98. So on

Ended up in a dream and realized I was lucid but I was losing it as soon as I noticed. Woke up and kept my eyes shut but tried to astral project from there.

Started imagining my limbs moving frantically and I COULD feel the pull but the problem is I couldn't breathe? I felt that way when I was lucid dreaming too. Heavy breathing like something's weighing on my chest. Heart rate high. It wasn't happening for me no matter how much I imagined myself moving like a cockroach. Just like this fuckin gif. But obviously I wasn’t moving I was trying to visualize it

I started to see SOMETHING in the blackness of my eyes. It was like a dark tunnel and the only light was this teal color which I assume are the edges of the tunnel? It was like I was flying through that. Kinda like seeing in the inside of your eyeballs?? Weirrrrdddd shit. But I was so uncomfortable and it wasn’t going anywhere so I had to call it quits and just continue my day

Like what was that ugh how do I stop that feeling I literally cannot breathe

I’m even more confused than before!

So when I say I decided to give it another shot, I mean it. I looked at those blogs of people who’ve shifted and even non shifting loass blogs with an open mind.

Y’all.. it really is the same thing every time. Same nonsense about “ignoring the 3d” and whatever else they say. I have no doubt it works for people who get it, but some of these people are just plain RUDE!!

“Hey something didn’t work out for me and made me really upset..” “WELL IT DID WORK EVERYTHINGS PERFECT ITS YOUR MINDSET”

And I wish more shifters outside this subreddit would call it out without us getting yelled at

Do they think they’re gatekeeping or something? I have yet to see a proper explanation for how to use it. Especially for people in hard situations

Like I said. I have no doubt it works for people who get it. I just wish all of us could get it too

My next hurdle: get in void state/hypnagogia/whatever and actually STAY there instead of falling asleep like I always do. This seems like the only thing I can actually keep up

Edit: more info

And here I am I feel SO humiliated all I want is to feel like a human. Do human things. Be with my loved ones. Whatever

I tried something I’d never done before and was fully convinced it would work. Even tried something with my mindset. Convinced myself shifting is just as easy as lucid dreaming. I’ve been an avid lucid dreamer my whole life (though it’s been severely lacking lately) so I figured if I treat these similarly it’ll help! It didn’t. I know I can try again tonight. And I will. I just don’t like failing after all this time

Like guys we have the information.. tell us what u did in your drs cmon.. unless you didn’t shift and you’re just trying to distract us with long aesthetic posts about how to shift?? 🤔

Now granted if people don’t wanna share info for private and personal reasons that’s a-okay with me. However there has to be more when I search up “shifting stories” on tumblr.. guysss

Like what? I actually do this? I guess it’s cool and weird at the same time but also humiliating. wtf is wrong with me

FYI I rlly like this creator’s content she’s very funny (her @ is @aurora0charlotte

Why is it so hard to enter the void when you’re actively trying??? How

Tumblr. I love you. But WHY OH WHY Is so much shifting content on there filled with loass???

This happens way more often than you’d think

I’m finally on break which means it’s SHIFTING TIME!! YIPPEEE 🥳