u/mediocreneet

Ive been with my mom literally all day. From when i woke up to a few minutes ago. We were together all day and when she got lunch i said i didn’t want anything and when we were at the store i got one cucumber for myself while she got cookies and stuff for dinner which was chicken and salad and i told her i dont want a salad so she knows i haven’t eaten all day. She knows ive been losing weight just in the past week i went from 128 to 117. On the way home i was saying a grilled cheese sounds really good and she said she will make it for me when we get home. I went to my room to look in the mirror and weigh myself and when i came out for dinner all the chicken was gone because my parents ate and gave the rest to the dogs and my mom said “but you said you weren’t gonna eat” so i told her thats not what i said, i said i didn’t want a salad and walked away. If she thought i wasn’t going to eat why offer to make me a grilled cheese?? She just went to give herself a massage because she is in pain and it started when we were at the grocery store. I know its spoiled of me to say no to part of the dinner she got but its less money for her to spend so isnt that good?? And i know its selfish of me to expect her to keep her word and make me a grilled cheese when shes in pain but i guess the root thing of my sadness is that my parents dont care that i haven’t eaten all day (ive been not eating for multiple days now idk if they know that tho) my dad got mad and was saying i left a cup full of mold on his tv tray so my mom came over and looked at it and said its just marshmallows (which it was bc i was going to wat that but decided its not good for me) and then they both got mad and said its doesnt matter what it is i need to do dishes. Im sad i feel like no one would care if i starved or died im crying and my parents never care when i cry. I know its just a couple of days not eating and its not like im starving im sorry i feel so fat complaining about food but i just wish someone cared about me

People keep dming me asking if im looking for a “cg” and i always reply with i have thought about it or no because honestly i just dont understand what a care giver is. Can someone explan who they are or what they do? are they like a babysitter or therapist im so sorry if this is insensitive but i am so confused like is it something someone can just offer up? I feel like im not involved in the community enough. I am a little but im kind of unaware of what a “cg” is, is it a parent or romantic partner??

I want fish sticks i wish i had cg to bring and prepare me snacks sigh but anyways more on what i want rn! I want fish sticks with ketchup on the side all in a cute divided plate :c some apple juice in a sippy would be amazing rn