u/mediumrare_3

I’m looking for any recommendations for Swedish gummy candies, sweet or sour. I’ve never tried before but see a lot of people talking about how nice the texture and flavors of gummy candies are.

I’m on Effexor and clonidine, so hard to figure out what is just the Effexor. While I have noticed significant improvement in my mdd, I still have unstable mood swings and can get very irritable, then I shut down or lash out, then I get very depressed. Is this emotion regulation skills I should work on in therapy or a part of my medication? Also just generally I’m scared of the stories I hear from others on Effexor and don’t want to take it long term, I know if I forget or am late taking my pills I start getting withdrawal symptoms so I know tapering off would probably be hellish for me. Any advice?

Tortilla
Sabtitas yellow corn chips
Tostitos lime
Late July

Spicy
Miss Vickies jalapeño chips
Doritos spicy nacho
Hot Cheetos

BBQ
Utz Carolina bbq
Fritos honey bbq twists
Herrs honey bbq

Sour cream
Utz ripples sour cream and onion
Baked sour cream and cheddar
Pringles sour cream and onion

Potato
Cape cod kettle cooked chips
Utz
Munchos

It’s been a few years since my traumas, I’m in the best place I’ve been mentally and physically probably my entire life, I’m in a safe environment, have a good support system, “doing all the right things” to continue healing basically. But flashbacks and dreams are getting exhausting. If I dont take my meds I feel psychotic the way I just get swallowed whole by whatever’s going on in my head. Night and sleep is probably worse than being triggered, my subconscious thoughts come up and my brain feels like it’s fighting itself. I don’t think I’ve gotten good, restful, nightmare-free sleep in years. Pretty much every night I wake up drenched in sweat, dreams are different but usually involve someone trying to hunt me down (my ex tried to kill me) and I just can’t shake that feeling of being literal prey.

Over the past few years I’ve slowly declined. I’m now unemployed with no plans for work, education, anything. I have no dreams, no goals. I honestly feel like the part of me that was motivated and hopeful is long gone, like she died when the trauma happened. I can’t shake this feeling of loss and hopelessness. I feel like a failure but also doing the best I can by just surviving right now. Every day is so hard to get through, I’m trying to find hobbies and spend time with loved ones but I still can’t help feeling like there’s no purpose in anything anymore.