SP is in a new relationship
Just to explain the old story, we have ended the relationship in march and after that it was kinda on and off with me trying to use the law to get her back. We broke contact 10 weeks ago. She said she loved me but some things in the relationship hurt her and she believes that these issues will never go away.
Today I broke NC and she told me she has a new boyfriend. Still, I got the impression he is there because she wants to move on and use him to forget me.
Anyways, at this point I tried everything. I read all the reddit posts, Nevilles books, watched most of Edwards videos multiple times over the last months to the point my brain is just tired.
I really tried embodying the version of me that has the desire and at times I did. I often had vivid scenes and inner conversations which always leave me happy for a while. I would imagine us being together, having a family and kids. The wish fulfilled just does not seem to stick and every morning I am greeted by the lack.
After todays call I am at my wits end. After all I tried, I was greeted with my biggest fear, her moving on. I even told myself that I would stop my pursuit, should she move on and part of me feels relief. Still, my desire for the end goal remains.
I just don't get it. What did I do wrong? I had some success with the law already but in this case nothing ever reflected. Or am I just faced with a rough bridge? Where to go from here? I could really use some advice.
