u/mirk19

My baby has been on Kendamil for the last few weeks. He does really well on it. I love the convenience of RTF formula at night though and for the diaper bag. I have my night stand set up with the Enfamil RTF they stocked me with in the hospital and spare nipples so I don’t have to get out of bed. He’s done okay with alternating. I use the powder during the day.

Kendamil is cheaper at my local store than Enfamil so that’s why I was thinking about it rather than switching to Enfamil powder as well.

I probably need to just need to mute people but I got in an argument in my group chat today. A few people were saying the WHO recommends BFING for 2 years. I said I only want to pump for like 8-12 months with a laughing emoji and that was a problem. I keep getting conflicting vibes. What exactly are the benefits after 12 months. My doctor said any amount of breastmilk as lifelong effects.

No offense to anyone here, but I hate pumping. I dread it. The only reason I’m pumping is because my baby can’t latch. He was born early so he was super sleepy for the first few weeks and then I have the stupidest inverted nipples which made it even harder when he did wake up. He’s only truly latched twice and transferred basically no milk so I’ve resigned to EPing for the last 3 weeks after my triple feeding nightmare. It’s been really bad. I have no one to talk to about it without some weird ass attack.

My PPD is off the chains, I tried overdosing a couple weeks ago and the only thing I thought afterwards was about how much milk I had to dump. It is pathetic and I know it’s pathetic and I don’t even know why I’m typing this. To make myself feel worse? (I am currently on a waitlist for a mom/baby IOP program at my psychiatric center, I am in the process of getting help I hope)

As I was sitting here typing this my husband comes in the room showing me this TikTok about how great breastmilk antibodies are. It’s like wherever I go i keep getting reinforcements. My plan is to just EP to 6 months but now I feeel like that’s not gonna be good enough but the idea of pumping for 2 years is making me feel nuts again. I never thought I’d have this much anxiety about feeding my baby. Everytime I think I can maybe quit or maybe be happy with my plan someone has to figuratively punch me in the face.

I was pretty devastated after a wrong way driver totaled my Honda pilot. I didn’t have the cash to replace the car at the trim level I had—and I refuse to finance shit again. So I got 2019 CX9 GT, figured I’d just trade it in next year when I got my bonus but I think imma keep it and/possibly buy a newer one. It’s so fun to drive. Holds the kiddos but doesn’t feel like driving a boat. How are the 2026s?

Kyron Kee-RAN Ky-Ran Karen

It’s a traditional Irish boy name or so I thought . I was not expecting it to be so horribly mispronounced. After I gave birth my mom/baby nurse said “Ky Ron” and I thought it was a one off, I WAS WRONG😂 no one has said it correctly first try.