u/morosegirly

the first trauma i worked through, i got through pretty quickly/easily.

todays trauma i worked through? i got so sucked into it so quickly and intensely. i didn’t think the trauma bothered me that much but i went through the event, then the person who did it, the people who were there, & then the feeling behind it.

i got so hot, the “bad” thought about myself was so loud & my therapist had me actually look him in the eyes in order to not flood myself. by the end i was actually giggling once i got back to my safe space.

i’ve never been so mentally tired in my life tho. & i’ve never been so physically activated by my trauma before. does the recovery ever get easier? bc rn i feel kinda sad and detached, not because of the memory per se but bc of the level of activation.

i'm going to lost lands solo this year & it's also my first ever festival.

are any other solo people going and maybe wanna see some sets together? :) i'm a 29F