Friendship that no longer feels comfortable
Problem/Goal: It feels like we're no longer at the same comfort and chapter.
I have this best friend and she's really special to me like a sibling.
Pero lately nawawalan na ko ng gana sa kanya. we kept in contact and occasionally meet up to keep up kung ano ganap sa buhay namin.
We're friends since 10th grade and now newly grad siya except me kasi nag repeat ako so im a 2 years late.
Maybe im just insecure? I dont know kasi when she was near finishing college she started treating me like im some stpid junior. Like kahit simpleng chat na madali naman maintindihan tine-treat niya as my act of stpdness. Na parang yung mga message ko is hindi detailed and such eh kahit highschool maiintindihan messages ko.
I'm a communication student, so it feels insulting for me yung mga ganung treatment niya
Ever since we graduated highschool it feels like i grew up or may mga nabago sakin. so feeling ko baka im just being emotional and im not used for the changes or maybe im just afraid to change my relationship and surroundings because of this fear.
Maybe that's why i cant let go of her.
She did not improve emotionally. Hindi umusad kahit humor niya. She experienced how relationship works since may pagka ambivert siya pero idk why she didn't grew up.
Feeling ko ang laki ng gap namin when it comes to our mind.
I no longer feel the comfort but i cant let go because of my attachment.
If i did cut her off idk how since she'll be the first important person im letting go....
I dont want to hate her dahil lang sa uncomfortable feelings ko.... kasi feeling ko lumalala treatment niya sakin like im some stup\*\*id kind of person. The annoying part is she's doing it indirectly and idk if its unintentionally.