u/mugiwaraMatt585

What do late 20s and early 30s people on Saturday nights? I'm 33 and need to get out.

I remember as a kid my mother used to take me and my brothers there. We would play on the arcade games they had. Also we would get Gameboy games there as well. I remember it smelling like smoke and the manager (or owner idk) had like really long hair. Just curious did they go out of business? Did the guy retire? What ever happened to him?

They were located in Hawks Nest Plaza.

I don't know but I'm having nightly thoughts. I'm 32 years old and don't really have any friends. I never had any real relationships. And I don't really know where to go from here. Some past background here. In kindergarten my parents got divorced. I grew up with my dad who was always cranky and mad at something. Never had any friends in elementary school, middle school, and high school. I remember my friend in middle school who rode on the same bus had a birthday party and didn't invite me but he invited my brother which was awkward. In high school I was always quiet and never talked with anyone. Home life with family wasn't ideal. Also I remember my twin brother asking me if I wanted to go to someone's graduation party but I said no because I wasn't really invited. My Fraternal twin and older brother really didn't want to hang out or do anything with me. Never really learned how to humanly socialize because the only one who was there for me was the dog I grew up with. That made college more difficult because again I never talked with anyone. I feel like I was always quiet because at home when I talked to my family, I could tell they were always annoyed with me. Even on online games, people never really were my friends. After collage, I am most likely still awkward and never could find a job related to my field. When I graduated, right after my dog passed away. The only one there for me when I grew up. When he passed away, I felt like he was the only there for me during his last day. I was super depressed for a year. 7 years down the road I worked in retail for a year and the rest in a manufacturing job. I guess I hung out with people at my work but there are times where I wasn't invited to stuff. Idk I am at that point in my life where I feel like I am too awkward for normal people and the weird people, so I never found my people. And at 32, it's like hard to believe that something will change. I'm at that point where I feel like I don't really want to help or do favors for people because I always feel used and taken advantage of. Now I don't want to waste anytime but it's hard to like, how do I say it, do things for myself. I tell myself to sleep early but I always stay up, I tell myself to eat and drink healthy but I always end up drinking an energy drinks or alcohol. I've been working out and trying to do the things that I "like" or need to do for the last month. But I feel like I haven't changed. At this point I just feel like I don't fit in with humans. Weird way to put it I know. But at this rate I feel like I am going to die alone.

I guess my question is what advice would you give me?

I don't know but I'm having nightly thoughts. I'm 32 years old and don't really have any friends. I never had any real relationships. And I don't really know where to go from here. Some past background here. In kindergarten my parents got divorced. I grew up with my dad who was always cranky and mad at something. Never had any friends in elementary school, middle school, and high school. I remember my friend in middle school who rode on the same bus had a birthday party and didn't invite me but he invited my brother which was awkward. In high school I was always quiet and never talked with anyone. Home life with family wasn't ideal. Also I remember my twin brother asking me if I wanted to go to someone's graduation party but I said no because I wasn't really invited. My Fraternal twin and older brother really didn't want to hang out or do anything with me. Never really learned how to humanly socialize because the only one who was there for me was the dog I grew up with. That made college more difficult because again I never talked with anyone. I feel like I was always quiet because at home when I talked to my family, I could tell they were always annoyed with me. Even on online games, people never really were my friends. After collage, I am most likely still awkward and never could find a job related to my field. When I graduated, right after my dog passed away. The only one there for me when I grew up. When he passed away, I felt like he was the only there for me during his last day. I was super depressed for a year. 7 years down the road I worked in retail for a year and the rest in a manufacturing job. I guess I hung out with people at my work but there are times where I wasn't invited to stuff. Idk I am at that point in my life where I feel like I am too awkward for normal people and the weird people, so I never found my people. And at 32, it's like hard to believe that something will change. I'm at that point where I feel like I don't really want to help or do favors for people because I always feel used and taken advantage of. Now I don't want to waste anytime but it's hard to like, how do I say it, do things for myself. I tell myself to sleep early but I always stay up, I tell myself to eat and drink healthy but I always end up drinking an energy drinks or alcohol. I've been working out and trying to do the things that I "like" or need to do for the last month. But I feel like I haven't changed. At this point I just feel like I don't fit in with humans. Weird way to put it I know. But at this rate I feel like I am going to die alone.

I guess my question is what advice would you give me?

I’m at that point where i am at that it’s better to find something else. I have a little over 5 years experience in manufacturing at the same company. I also have a bachelor’s in computer science with little experience from like 6 years ago. Just curious if you know if they are any opportunities out there that you may know of where I can make at least 22.50 an hour or more. Indeed seems to not be working out for me. Any information or advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.