How to deal with infertility at 22
I was recently diagnosed with POI (premature ovarian insufficiency) at 22. I was leaning towards never having kids. I never had the motherly instinct toward children (I had it with my cat who passed away last year).
Now, I feel defeated and lost. I did not want kids, but I would love to have the choice. I would like to imagine how they would look like now. My mom also isn’t supportive of my diagnosis - she makes fun of me and says I will age worse because I am using estrogen patches / HRT.
I feel like I lost my femininity. A lot of my relatives say my children would be cute, but I did see how many of them lost their identity after children. Some even regret having them, and that hurts (as someone who grew up in not the best conditions).
Can anyone please provide advice? Or comfort. Or anything. I am embarrassed to even talk to a man romantically because I can’t imagine telling them what I have since most of them want kids (especially in my culture).
I am in college, but nothing seems to matter anymore. Some days are good. Others are not. I feel isolated from the world and I have no one. My only support system - my cat - is gone and I feel like a mess. Maybe it’s because my progesterone dosage is too low lol (I’m working on getting that fixed soon)
Edit: for comments, I appreciate all of them. Please do not tell me I will get pregnant. This is a medical condition similar to early menopause (regarding symptoms and the fact that my ovaries is not working in an efficient way). Please google what premature ovarian insufficiency is before you comment thank you