For people who left their religion and converted to Bahai faith, how did you deal with skepticism and "carelessness"?
For context: I am an ex-muslim (apatheist) for 6 years or so, I'm currently reading more about the Bahai faith, I generally like it. I have 2 concerns
My First Concern is About spirituality
In these 6 years, I had developed a materialistic and very scientific way of thinking, when reading "Kitab al-aqdas" I still read it with a critical eye, I am still comparing it to Quran (in terms of linguistics, since I am Arab), and I am still unconsciously feel biased to Quran (in terms of figures of speech, not the content), generally, I feel very skeptical towards the holy texts and prayers and less spiritual. I feel I lost this spiritual sense when I left Islam long time ago
My Second Concern is About Beliefs
Let me give an example here, I was born and raised on the belief that Jesus was not crossified. Bahais believe that Jesus was crossified, even though I left Islam, I can't deny that the first idea has a stronger impact on my mind. Now, if I converted to Bahai, and was asked about whether Jesus was crossified or not, my honest answer will be "I don't care". I personally don't belive or disbelieve such a thing, completely neutral. This is the case with many beliefs inside the religion, as long as the belief doesn't touch me directly (specially historical things like this), I don't care so much. But I do really care about the the unity of god, religion and humanity
Can you share your experiences about feeling spiritual in Bahai coming from religious-then-irreligious background? Also, does it require to care about details I mentioned above to be a Bahai?