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I saw this video of Zayn in ARGENTINA waving from a high BALCONY during this month of OCTOBER which normally would be a totally normal occurrence. However, for Liam and 1d fans this is obviously a bit startling. I saw posts calling people out for connecting “everything” Zayn does to Liam but, seriously? How could this possibly not make us think of Liam? The fandom is traumatized by the events that happened in Argentina 2 years ago this month, and that is totally understandable. Also, does Zayn do this often? I’ve seen many videos of Liam interacting with fans from his hotel balcony, but can’t think of a Zayn one. He usually stays under the radar, does his gig, and moves along. The whole thing just strikes a very weird nerve.

So, my question is, does Zayn know how this might remind people of Liam or is it pure coincidence? It reminds me of Harry singing to someone else on Liam’s birthday or Niall recently singing You and I with Lewis Capaldi. These boys are smart. They know the fandom lore especially when it comes to Larry and Ziam. They know what happened to Liam and that people are still heavily grieving. So, what is the intent or are they really that tone deaf?

EDIT: Does anyone know for sure if this is Zayn? A commenter told me that it actually isn’t him but I haven’t been able to find good confirmation either way!

This is a beautiful music video with beautiful people for a beautiful song, but is there more? I was watching it this morning and of course I always have my Ziam goggles on. I found the timing of the video release to be interesting as it’s on the eve of Zayn performing in Argentina as we near 2 years since Liam’s passing there 💔

In the beginning of the mv Arya is in purple (Liam’s favorite color) up on the balcony. I think this represents Liam in Heaven while Zayn is left alone below. When we see Zayn he looks sad and thoughtful, like he’s missing someone. It reminded me a lot of the Sideways mv where Zayn is looking at the empty space beside him in bed. Eventually, Arya joins him downstairs but they are not together. They both just pass each other and turn to a purple stardust. They are together in spirit but not in body.

The last thing I noticed was during one sequence an image flashes of a black hole or maybe a portal? Not sure why this is included, but I think I’ve seen similar portals in Louis and Harry’s mvs. If anyone has thoughts on this, I’d love to hear.

I’m excited for Zayn’s tour starting up again and thought this was a very telling jacket to wear. It’s clear from his lyrics, visuals, and coding that he’s tired of the cage and the chains. Whether this is about being closeted, being silenced about his views, or something else, I’ve noticed this as a theme in his music. It’s become ever more clear that Zayn has been targeted for defying the powers at play. Hope this is a sign he is getting closer to freedom.

From his song Break Free:
Do you ever feel like I feel?
Heart's racing, but I can't hear
You live your life, but it don't feel real
Do you ever feel like I feel?
Don't really know how you wound up here
It's gettin' harder to hold back your tears
Forget it all, let's just disappear...
Hey, hey, hey
They can never hold us down as long as we keep hanging on
Oh, I'm breaking free
And you can't stop me
I'm breaking free
And now I see
I'm breaking free
You won't stop me
I'm breaking free

Still can’t stop thinking about him❤️

Credit: “Pretty Baby” by Alex Sampson

Zayn posted this pic on insta and I saw someone point out a dinosaur in the background. Liam loved dinosaurs and had some at his house. The last pic is of some of Liam’s. Guess Zayn loves dinosaurs too!

It was so lovely to see Liam being celebrated by so many people on his birthday, but I couldn’t help but feel heartbroken that he isn’t here to celebrate with us. I still miss him and feel sad about his passing, but I want to move to a better place where I can focus on the joy he brought this world. I made this video somewhat as a release of my sadness, so hopefully, I can remember the smiles instead of the tears. Thought I’d share in case anyone else is feeling the same 🪽❤️

Edit to add: Credit to Gone by Iam Tongi 🎶

I’ve been getting a lot of heat this week for reading too much into “coincidences” but I just can’t believe that these boys aren’t up to something. The patterns I’ve seen since Liam died seem to indicate that they are all in contact even though the media paints a different story. I often find that there are two realities living side by side. The one the media feeds the gp that they broke up years ago and have grown apart, Zayn is a black sheep, Liam wasn’t close to anyone but Louis, etc. Then there is the story they are telling through their lyrics and art that they are all in this together.

This weekend the coincidences were adding up as Zayn was seen in NYC on Harry’s opening night just days before Liam’s birthday. On August 28th Harry wore a yellow sunflower shirt which Larries claimed for the obvious connection to Louis song Sunflowers. However, Sunflowers also have a Zayn connection as he has a Sunflower tattoo and of course yellow is his color. I’ve also noticed Louis and Harry especially wearing/using the 💙💚❤️💛 combos. As is probably apparent from my last few posts, I’ve been frustrated with the boys public personas, but in my heart I really believe that they are trying to tell another story, and that they haven’t forgotten Liam and the bond that they all share. I think they are all Sunflowers wanting to be free 🌻

Happy Birthday to this sweet man. Wish you were here, Liam, but I hope you feel the love today and always ❤️🪽

With Liam’s birthday coming up this week I’ve been in my feelings for the past several days as it approaches. My heart is hurting for Liam’s family and son. I’m just heartbroken that he is not here to see 33, but also remembering all the joy he brought💔

In my mind, all that matters this week is celebrating Liam. Then on Wednesday the 26th, 3 days until Liam’s birthday, Harry starts his MSG residency, and ZAYN shows up the same day in NYC. Of course, this causes tons of buzz. I understand he has a collab out and an mv upcoming, but you can’t ignore the timing on Liam’s bday week.

That brings us to yesterday when I go online to see that Liam’s cousin, Ross, is launching a charity to honor Liam, and the hate is immediate and harsh. I don’t know if Ross is doing this partially to promote himself, but who cares? He’s donating to good causes in Liam’s memory and bringing attention to the charitable work Liam loved to do. I just don’t see the harm or reason to attack this man who has only ever shown love and talked positively of Liam. People always say we can’t judge how people (the boys) grieve, but that is exactly what they are doing to Ross.

So, here comes my rant - why is there so much hate against Ross (and Kate although she’s a bit guiltier imo) profiting off Liam’s death, but no one can talk about the boys? Zayn and Harry are baiting a Zarry reunion days before Liam’s birthday as Harry starts his msg shows and Zayn has a new song, and its only positive reactions and excitement. It was the same when Louis and Niall used their songs about Liam during their album promos. Don’t get me wrong, they are allowed to write songs about their friend, but it was definitely a part of their album releases, and no one batted an eye. They barely acknowledged Liam when he was alive or after his passing, but suddenly during album release week, he is top of mind.

I’m not saying the boys can’t grieve or remember Liam. They can and SHOULD talk about Liam, but the timing always seems convenient. The bottom line for me is we can not hate on Ross for the same thing we celebrate the boys for. In fact, Ross is using Liam’s memory to raise money for charity, and the boys are promoting their own albums, so I could argue that their behavior is worse. This reminds me so much of the hypocrisy Liam endured where he got hate for things the other boys would get love for. Maybe I am missing something, but this is how the situation comes off to me. I’d love to hear any other thoughts or perspectives ❤️

Just watching some responses to Zayn’s posts has me really realizing how rampant the homophobia is out there. Lots of people wonder why Zayn or anyone else wouldn’t just come out and this is the answer. The first two pics are some explicit homophobia under his post supporting LGBTQ+ rights. As someone who grew up very religious, I know being queer is less acceptable in many religious communities. The last two are just a couple of the posts I saw about a woman giggling in the background of Zayn’s video with his dog. We all know if this was a man giggling no one would think they were in a relationship. In fact, I remember hearing a man laughing in the car of one of his videos after his Mexico shows, but I don’t remember the same response.

While there are some fans who are blatantly hateful to queer people, many more people who are not outwardly homophobic still hold heteronormative views and implicit biases. They may not be upset if Zayn is queer, but it might make them less interested in his music or brand. A lot of Zayn’s fanbase values his looks and sex appeal and him being straight keeps the illusion. Since Zayn has been publicly single since Gigi, I think he also may “stunt” in the sense of putting out the idea he is still with women we don’t know about to keep up appearances.

Also, Liam” Gallagher famously wore this jacket and the colors ❤️💛. Could be nothing or could be something!

Ever since I heard Zayn’s new collab today I’ve felt broken and couldn’t get the song off my mind. It hit me so hard that I had to make my first ever edit to a song. I don’t know if Zayn purposely picked this song because of Liam, but he is all I can think about when I hear it.
I feel so heartbroken when I think about them and wonder how it ended like this 💔

Liam gave us so much to remember about his talent, kindness, and the pure joy he brought. I know a certain tabloid released a bunch of B.S. this week, but this is who Liam was, and I will always think of him this way ❤️