Thank you guys, so so so much. I feel so welcome here. I love that each and everyone of you are so kind and understanding.
I just joined a weekish ago this community has helped me so very much.
Thank you thank you thank you!!!
My libido has always been low, I’ve been on the IUD since i was 15. i’m 25 now. I don’t remember what it’s like to be unmedicated lol. I’m wanting her to go up tho😭
I (25 LLF) talked to him (25 HLM) today. He didn’t raise his voice, he didn’t shame or invalidate me. He was surprisingly very calm. this was nothing like previous conversations. He admitted he has a problem. But he does not like that i consider it cheating.
Since our conversation went well, i decided that i would try to make explicit content for him (i’ve never done such). If he needs porn so bad i want it to be me, only me.
in the moment of me doing my thing, I got a crazy confidence boost. I finally felt sexy! I felt unstoppable! i am that girl! oh my god i’ve never been this beautiful!!
but wait, am i objectifying myself?
Now I feel disgusting.
If i give him my content, i’m scared he will still crave porn and lust over other women. I’m scared i still won’t be enough. Will he just use and abuse this too?
I know i shouldn’t compare myself to these actresses. I am unique, natural, and real. My emotions and actions are genuine.
i just can’t help but to think about him getting off to the opposite of me. This woman has large breast, i am flat chested. One girl is 18, i’m 25. This woman is skinny and has beautiful brown straight hair, I have a cute figure and curly blonde hair. ugh. THEY are pleasing him, i’m not.
We have been together for 5 1/2 years. I didn’t know anything about his addiction until 2022. I then made it very very clear that i am NOT okay with porn. he flipped absolute shit, but he promised me he wouldn’t do it again. He lied. I have found a few things here and there. but this discovery hit me HARD.
I have been lied to and cheated on… again. My heart is aching. i do NOT want our relationship to end over this. but if it happens again, i have to take care of me.
I’m so sick to my stomach. my heart hurts like something unreal… why am i not good enough, why am i not pretty or “sexy” enough. Why can i not force my mind and body please him.
my libido is incredibly low. is this all my fault? why is it my fault!! i can’t help it no matter how much i’ve tried.
I looked at his history today. June 3rd, May 29, March 24. That’s all that was there. THATS ALL THAT I KNOW ABOUT!!!! HOW MUCH HAS BEEN DELETED!!!!
i shouldn’t have looked. i went back and read old messages where i told him how i felt about porn. oh my god i’m so hurt. i can’t stop shaking. i’m freaking out.
We’ve been together five years. i set a boundary from day one. He was on and off with it for the first 3 years. in 2023 i seriously set my foot down.
This is one of the best drinks i have ever had. I know it’s the horchata shaken espresso, but my barista said he added a little ✨flair✨. It’s not super sweet, i told him i like more of a bitter taste.
This is about my (plant on left) sisters (plant on right) addiction. She is three years sober now! yay!
The left plant Is leggy, has very weak and little roots, a thin small pot, tiny black sun, no stake, only gets water from rain. It is strong and bears fruit Its been forced to adapt to what its given- nothing.
It always has.
Right side has a bright beautiful sun, thick strong roots, stake to grow up, large sturdy pot. someone is taking the time to water it. It’s getting all of the attention.
It always has.
Someone left those brown beer bottles in the pot of the small plant. The bottles are blocking her soil from getting water. The shadows are covering her from the sunshine. She has no choice but to use them as support. It’s now all she knows.
The bottles are killing her.
It’s not her fault. She can’t help that someone trashed her pot. She didn’t want this. It’s heartbreaking.
I am very grateful my pot isn’t littered. I am happy shes had all that’s been done for her.
but i am alone.
always have been.