u/nusner16

Im a chronic skin picker, so please ignore my janky cuticles🥲. Im iffy about going to a salon because sometimes my picking is really bad and I would feel unhygienic to go with torn fingers.

Ive decided I want to learn how to do my own nails. Im tired of wearing glue or press ons, they dont last long. Im starting out simple of course! I would love to get some nail tips and thin brushes to try my hand at nail art sometime, but for now, just some simple polish!

I love the pink tone, and the glitter is so pretty to me. My nails are short right now, they are usually much longer than this. I cut them about a week ago because I put on press ons. Im just waiting for my nails to grow back out😂

Anyway,, whats everyone's opinions, and any advice if you have some? Id love to hear! And please be nice🫶

This really doesn't look so bad, but i know it doesn't look "normal". The only reason it isnt that bad right now is because ive been wearing press-ons that made it hard to pick. I just ripped them off though.

Ever since I was a little kid, I've picked at my skin. Mainly my fingertips and around my fingernails. Same for my toes. I pick at any bump on my arms and legs, and I occasionally pick my scalp. Im 21 now, I dont know how many years ive been picking for, but at this point it's just habit. I dont even realize im doing it sometimes.

I hate it. I want to stop, but at the same time, I love doing it. But it's so ugly. I want to have pretty hands. Not ugly, rough, and dry fingers. I'd absolutely love to feel comfortable (and safe, hygiene wise) enough to get my nails done. Get my toes done. Part of me hates wearing just glue or press ons because I feel like the pretty nails are ruined by my ugly fingertips. I want to feel comfy and confident in my skin.

Im self conscious about it. I remember in 7th grade, I had bandaids on almost all my fingers, and some kid asked why. I couldn't say why, but its always haunted me that he noticed. Some friends I had then had also pointed out my torn up fingers. Since then ive been so wary of people seeing my fingers. I see other people's fingers, and they look perfect. No torn skin, no scabs, nothing. Just perfect, healthy skin. Im jealous of them.

I don't really know what else to say.. I guess I just wanted to finally open up about it, and chose to do it somewhere I know there will be others like me.