Im 18F, 5'1 height ~36kg weight. Can someone pls make a good diet plan. I eat veggies and in non veg i get to have chicken and eggs sometimes.
I feel really insecure abt my weight nowadays and everybody's just taunting me..
Basically, all of my family members are toxic. None of them got the right brain.
My dad had always physically abused my mom and not just a slap or punch it was a always a 1hr session. Growing up that was the scariest thing to witness. My mom, younger brother and I have been abandoned multiple times by my father till one time when i turned 5 or 6 ig he finally decided to live together. My mom is schizophrenic and that leads to a alot of money spent on her medicines and checkups. My dad hated this, said your mother ruined my life. While my mother tells your dad ruined my life.
Somehow life went on until i got into 12th grade, high school. Again, my dad stated he's struggling alot with my mother and can't focus on achieving his goals. He decided to make an agreement that said the children can live with whichever parent they want but i can't live with my wife anymore. That, somehow passed too and we got to September, same year. My mom's sister had been visiting us alot lately since my brother was at my maternal grandma's home getting some treatment which needed proper nutrition but it was not possible since my mother isn't well enough.
Later in the same month my father found my abt my relationship and he hated the boy, he cursed me alot too bcs "society" said i will let him down and that i should die. Children who against parent can never give happiness. He tortured me alot. Removed me from coaching classes mind u it was my boards year and i had science with maths. I'm already always down on health im skinny. He curses me whenever i feel down or need to visit a doc. He's always hated me. Always tried to control me, disown me. He adores my brother, tho he's trynna control his life as well since he's naive.
In october i found out my aunt(masi, unmarried) and my dad are having an affair and they talked to me about marrying since my mother "can't take care of us". She claimed she'd look after my mom and all of us. It's been 1.5 years now since they got married. My mother doesn't know about it or she'd take her life. My aunt she does nothing that she claimed abt. They only provide us with food and shelter and now that im bout to enroll in a college which i might get outside of my home state, my aunt she's saying "who'd look after ur mom?" wasn't she the one who promised to looks after everything?
I live with my mom and my brother lives with them btw.
My mom, she keeps on cursing me all day for household chores. I'm not well either yet i do alot. If i do one thing less, she straight up calls my father and bad mouths abt me that she's been influenced, she argues u should marry her away. Im just 18. It's alot of pressure sometimes and i can't express everything that I've felt and experienced in these years. I gave a short summary, it's worse. I don't understand what to do sometimes. I wanna get away from my family forever. English is not my first language pls don't mind it.
Something has happened that is perhaps leading me to be insecure and on the verge of leaving this relationship.
About 2 or 3 days back he had posted a note "who's in for beer tmrw?" Im not into liquor neither do i mind him drinking since he's an adult who can make his own choices, i simply ignored the note. The next day he ghosted me from afternoon till the next morning. He texted "i got into a car accident"(lowk minor), sent a photo of his car which did prove his statement. I asked him how he got into this mess and he just replied "idk, i can't remember anything". I said fine then he sent another photo with a text "I'm getting it fixed". I replied with an okay. This convo happened in the evening yesterday and no texts afterwards. Then today in the morning he texted me how he alr and just got a few cuts from the backseat glass that shattered completely. I got concerned and asked him to get medicine from a pharmacy since he spent all the money to fix the car and I'm nearly broke. So um, let me get to the point. We haven't met since more than a week now and we live hardly 5-7 mins walk away. He told me it's not possible to meet everyday or more frequently cz of his family. The day he put that note, his parents had gone somewhere. We could've met, easily. But a few hours ago while i was comforting him, telling him how to cope up with the injuries, concerned while i have my own problems going on. He was posting a story meanwhile. That story included two beer bottles and the hand other than his was a girl, i think. The nails were well groomed. The way that bottle is held. I can tell it's a girl. The caption said "don't drink and drive😭". He even posted a note that said "alcoholic girls are closest we can get to an angel". Is this why he couldn't "remember anything". Am i overthinking this or what. Helpp
Something has happened that is perhaps leading me to be insecure and on the verge of leaving this relationship.
About 2 or 3 days back he had posted a note "who's in for beer tmrw?" Im not into liquor neither do i mind him drinking since he's an adult who can make his own choices, i simply ignored the note. The next day he ghosted me from afternoon till the next morning. He texted "i got into a car accident"(lowk minor), sent a photo of his car which did prove his statement. I asked him how he got into this mess and he just replied "idk, i can't remember anything". I said fine then he sent another photo with a text "I'm getting it fixed". I replied with an okay. This convo happened in the evening yesterday and no texts afterwards. Then today in the morning he texted me how he alr and just got a few cuts from the backseat glass that shattered completely. I got concerned and asked him to get medicine from a pharmacy since he spent all the money to fix the car and I'm nearly broke. So um, let me get to the point. We haven't met since more than a week now and we live hardly 5-7 mins walk away. He told me it's not possible to meet everyday or more frequently cz of his family. The day he put that note, his parents had gone somewhere. We could've met, easily. But a few hours ago while i was comforting him, telling him how to cope up with the injuries, concerned while i have my own problems going on. He was posting a story meanwhile. That story included two beer bottles and the hand other than his was a girl, i think. The nails were well groomed. The way that bottle is held. I can tell it's a girl. The caption said "don't drink and drive😭". He even posted a note that said "alcoholic girls are closest we can get to an angel". Is this why he couldn't "remember anything". Am i overthinking this or what.