hi friends! i'm back :3
i'm curious if any of you have had an experience of a romantic relationship going to a qpr. my partner of 7yrs and i broke up, just became friends for 8 months, and now we're in a qpr. i'd love to hear some other perspectives
this is a really messy story but the context is important.
my qpp is someone i was dating for several years, and the romance long since fizzled out on my end and we broke up quite some time ago when i found out i'm aroace. he came around to the idea of being in a qpr after a while and its been this way for a bit and he now thinks he's also aroace
i am autistic and have a cluster-b personality disorder. these things culminate in me having really passionate interests but being really protective of them/my specific interpretation. i've been hyperfixated on dead by daylight (dbd) for a few years now, and have been teaching my qpp how to play
some important extra context is that we have things we do together that are exclusive to us. for example, there was this one show that we watched every single episode as it aired together. even after we broke up and things were a little weird, we only watched the show together. it was our thing
now that being said: he's playing dbd with someone else. not only that, but this someone else also plays the same killer i do. i can't tell if it's that cluster-b gatekeeping i do, but i'm really angry and really jealous. dude — that's our thing. not only is it our thing, but that specific killer is MY thing. i'm proud to call myself a Legion main and i gush about them constantly. my qpp and i always play the event together, if we play it at all (i don't like the events usually but we'll try it together if it interests him). he played the goddamn event with this other person that plays my favorite killer and just. didn't tell me?
it's the "not telling me" is part of what really pissed me off. they mentioned it after the fact offhandedly and that really made me mad. if i had watched that show with someone else and told him absently the next time he asked to watch it with me, he'd be really really upset. he knows i am always up to play dbd and constantly looking for people to play with, and that my first year at uni has just ended and all i wanna do is binge-play dbd. and now he's playing it with some person that i've never even heard him mention before? it's not even like it's a close friend or something
let me put it this way: say there's a meal that you cook exceptionally well. and every time you cook this meal, you invite your friend over to eat it with you because you're proud of it and because they like it. whenever they want to eat this meal, they ask you if you're cooking it. now imagine how you would feel if one random day, they went over to a new friend's house and that friend made them that exact meal (and probably did it better) and your friend didn't even think to tell you.
it HURT. it hurt that, not only did he play MY favorite video game with someone else, but that someone else played my best killer. i'm embarrassed and i'm hurt and i am totally open to being told "hey this is just your personality disorder" or if this is a semi-normal thing in a bond this close
hi I'm aroace so I'm immune to love spells backfiring give me your moneys!!!!!! it has to come true bc if the spell doesn't backfire that means it WORKED!
alright friends. this may be a chunky post.
hi! i took a long break from reddit but now i am back! i don't think anyone hear knows me, but the point i'm making is that my knowledge might be a little outdated, so i'm looking for a refresh.
some context — i am a devotee of anubis and work with khonsu on a cycled basis. thoth has just come to me and our relationship isn't set yet. i am an english major and had to take a break from my practice for about ten months; i only practiced via occasional veiling. i would like to buff my knowledge up a bit and refresh my memory.
below, i am putting down offerings and associations i have listed for each of my gods. i would love recommendations for any edits.
anubis
drink ~ beer, rum, cold water, wine, black tea, green tea, coffee
food ~ bread, licorice, spicy food, dark chocolate
crystals ~ obsidian, smoky quartz, black onyx, labradorite, jet, hematite, tiger's eye, fire opal, melanite, bloodstone, black tourmaline, garnet, amethyst
herbs ~ cypress, black/dark rose petals, cloves, cardamom, rosemary, star anais, juniper, mugwort
incense ~ sandalwood, frankincense, cedarwood, myyrh
colors/associations ~ black, gold, locks and keys, Sirius, the number 9
actions ~ visit cemetery, leave flowers on a stranger's grave, write something for him, divination, veiling
other ~ study death, cleaning/collecting bones
khonsu
drink ~ water, milk
food ~ bread, honey
crystals ~ clear quartz, lapis lazuli, obsidian, opal
herbs & incense ~ sandalwood, peppermint, cinnamon, vanilla
colors ~ white/silver, blue, gold flecks
actions ~ prayers at night, video games, quality time, protection of others and self
thoth
drink ~ beer, milk
food ~ nuts, granola bars, bread, honey
crystals ~ moonstone, lapis lazuli, selenite
herbs ~ lavender, papyrus, cinnamon, sage, rosemary, dandelion
incense ~ frankincense and myrrh
colors ~ can't find much on this
actions ~ study sessions, advising people
other ~ writing supplies you'll actually use as an offering
these are things that i can't find sources on, or sources that agree.
ma'at
specifically what ma'at entails. if it's a solid list, or a fluid thing; if it's only the concept of balance or if there's something more concrete.
kemetic calendar
modern practice. i am really struggling to find a kemetic calendar that works with our current Gregorian one, even if it shifts.