u/palanet

I was so in love with her. i know I shouldn’t wish things might still work out. I keep hoping that she’ll text me, or show some signs that she still loves me and forgives me for the way things ended. it’s been over a year and my heart still longs for no one else. i deleted my entire instagram account so i finally could stop seeing what she was up to. i don’t really seem to find any other girls even half as interesting anymore. she understood me in ways no one has ever. nothing feels right anymore. I haven’t been happy since the breakup and just keep hoping something will change. I just got out of a rehab after trying to end my life because I was so full of shame based around how things ended between us and how much I had hurt her.

there is a song lyric that goes “and I crawl back into your open arms”

it’s all I want to do but I don’t think she will ever open back up to me, or want to be with me again. I have been in so much pain and it doesn’t seem to end. any advice at all would be extremely helpful.