u/pinkie_bear06

Hi ok so I have struggled with this for a while and I have conflicting thoughts about it so I need opinions. I’m 20F but when I was in 3rd grade my older, by one year, F cousin came to visit with her family. Things were ok for the most part until at one point I tried to change and she just wouldn’t leave to let me do it. She literally just sat there and watched me and I was an extremely quiet kid but I do remember asking her to leave and her just not. It made me extremely uncomfortable and even now I feel like it’s stuck with me. I remember after that day just feeling really uncomfortable and upset the whole time she was there. When I went back to school I just felt off and unsettled but happy she finally left. When I was older about 12 I had gone to visit her with my family and I still felt that uncomfortable feeling I had when I was a kid. She was normal with me at that point but I remember not wanting to be alone with her or even around her. At that time I never considered my experience in 3rd grade as something serious. When I was 15 we went back to visit her and I was fine, able to be around her but after we came back home I started to think back on the first experience a lot.

I guess what I’m trying to ask is, does this count? Am I a victim or am I being dramatic about it? I do remember trying to tell my mom about what happened and her saying that that was normal for girls our age and that I should’ve just spoken up if I was that uncomfortable. I remember too starting to get really uncomfortable at yearly exams after that. I also became more interested in other people’s bodies. I was 8 but I knew it was wrong. Why didn’t she if she was older? Am I being dramatic about it and overthinking it?

Is it wrong to use an actor as a fictional cg? I had a dream about an actor last night and it was very little/cg and made me feel really comfortable and happy. Does anyone else do this or is it wrong?

Helloo so I’ve been really busy and stuff because I went on a trip to see a concert and I also got sick two weeks ago + stress. I haven’t been able to age regress and honestly just haven’t been in the right headspace. I’ve also been adult reading and I like to separate my adult interests from my little headspace. I’ve been wanting to use my paci but I also don’t like using it if I’m going to read my spicy books or watch big shows. My therapist told me it’s ok to but it just feels wrong. Do some of you guys force yourself into the headspace? Or no? The only time I can fully age regress is at night and even then I’m too hyper aware of someone catching me. I’m just unsure what to do because like I want to get into the headspace but I’m having a hard time making time and also fully getting into it. I also don’t have a CG so I have no one to guide me into that space. Any advice would be appreciated!

Helloo so I’ve been really busy and stuff because I went on a trip to see a concert and I also got sick two weeks ago + stress. I haven’t been able to age regress and honestly just haven’t been in the right headspace. I’ve also been adult reading and I like to separate my adult interests from my little headspace. I’ve been wanting to use my paci but I also don’t like using it if I’m going to read my spicy books or watch big shows. My therapist told me it’s ok to but it just feels wrong. Do some of you guys force yourself into the headspace? Or no? The only time I can fully age regress is at night and even then I’m too hyper aware of someone catching me. I’m just unsure what to do because like I want to get into the headspace but I’m having a hard time making time and also fully getting into it. I also don’t have a CG so I have no one to guide me into that space. Any advice would be appreciated!

Don’t read when little! (Mentions of throw up)

Last night I was rushed to the hospital for sever lower back and tummy pain on my left side. Turns out I have a kidney stone, it’s not too too big thank goodness but it hurt so bad. I’m now on around the clock pain meds and Zofran since I threw up 11 times. I’m so so tired and a teensy bit in pain but overall I’ve been ok. I came home around 9 am and crashed out after taking ibuprofen and Dramamine since my Zofran wasn’t in yet.

I want to just say, always listen to your body! I was nervous about going to the hospital so I was putting it off but I felt like something was very wrong inside of me.

I have an extremely high pain tolerance and even this was absolutely horrible. I also found out my upper arm was in fact broken after 6 month of pain, I have a chronic break there 🙁but I’m just glad I know now.

Anyways now I know my pain and I’m going to be watching cartoons until further notice!

I want to just say I’m not looking for a CG and this is no way a way for me to find one, I’m simply venting.

Ok anyways, so some of you might know if you’ve seen some of my posts before that I’m physically disabled which means I have a lot of restrictions. My mom is my caregiver legally speaking and helps me with everyday things like food, showering, bathroom and everything like that.

I was talking to my therapist the other week that I want a caregiver not out of obligation but out of wanting. Something different from my mom. Not someone who has to take care of my needs but my little needs.

I see a lot of tik toks of CG’s taking their littles out on adventures and it makes me feel a teensy bit jealous. I know that I’d want someone in person and not online because I want that physical connection and I know more than likely I’ll want it to be a partner rather than a friend.

The other problem is I have a very hard time with “cg talk” and I think it’s because most of my life I’ve been treated like a incompetent child when I’ve been extremely mentally mature. I also was groomed so I get nervous when people approach me.

Most of my struggles with accepting my age regression was because I spent so long forcing myself to look and act older or else people would treat me like I’m a baby. But the reality of it is, I love being a kid and kid things, I love kids shows more than adult, I love kids movies more than adult. I love toys and stuffies and bright colors. I love age regression and all I want is for someone to give me that support and allow me to fully be in that headspace. I want someone to guide me through it and make me feel safe and if I’m being honest, I want to be spoiled.

But I’ve seen so many posts of littles being ghosted, taken advantage of, abused and more. I’m also scared that because I have a hard time even finding a partner that I’ll never actually experience that. I’m also scared that if I do date someone they’ll fetishize my age regression if I tell them too soon. I’m tiny. Like infant sized. I’m perfect to infantilize and I don’t want that. Especially with my trauma that I have. I literally use a baby paci.

I don’t know. I’m just scared but also regressing on my own is so lonely and sad. I want someone to hold me and watch cartoons with me. To play with toys with me and take me shopping for new ones. I want someone to just be with me without judgment.

Yea I guess that’s it, I don’t know. Just kinda a rant. Does anyone else feel this way?

(Trigger warning: emetophobia

Hi guys, so I know my last post I made was pretty bummed out but things turned around! I was able to go to therapy in session and start making my pacis! My anxiety did get the best of me and I did throw up in the morning but I got myself together and ended being able to go! I didn’t get to finish though so my therapist helped discreetly get everything into my car and I was able to get everything back home and in my room with 0 issues! Tonight I decorated both of them while watching My Little Pony but need a Curious George button center for one of them that I’m planning on ordering once the seller gets back to me.

I’ll post the pacis tomorrow when I can take a picture of them during the day. I can’t wait to use them! I’m so excited and finally feel better even if I’m tired and sore from the long day I had. Now I’m going to rest and sleep! Night night!

I was supposed to have therapy today in person for the first time in nearly 2 years and I was so excited because I was going to be able to make my paci. Yesterday my anxiety was really bad because I had to get in a strangers car but then my sister was able to take me instead which turned my anxiety into just excitement. Then this morning I woke up and found out my therapist had to cancel because she left her keys in her fiances car and was unable to go to the facility. I was so so sad because I was so excited to have my paci. I told her to let me know if she can see me tomorrow and she said she can do 5pm but my sister (if she works) works till 5 and my mom is supposed to be off at 4 but rarely is because it’s too busy. I told her to put me down but I’m just sad because I was really excited and I really wanted my paci. If I do next week I’ll have to set up transportation again and my anxiety with that has been so bad. I’m just sad and a little angry. I feel like this happens every time I want to do in person sessions.

I’ve noticed since starting to age regress my feelings are more…present. I was never one to cry but lately ever since starting to age regress I cry over little inconveniences or big happy things too. My sister was able to take off work to take me to therapy in person and I started crying because I was happy I didn’t have to go in a strangers car. Granted I’m on my period too but I’ve just been a lot more sensitive. Anyone else have this same thing happening?

Anyone have age regression YouTube channels? Them being age regressors or like just fun stuff to watch when little? My age range is 5-10! I made a channel just to watch stuff so it’s not on my main since my main is connected to the living room tv.