u/pisstained

I have been a heavy smoker of cannabis for the past... 20 odd years.
Consuming roughly 1 oz of flower a week through "buckies"
I would smoke around 0.5g per cone and try and blow my socks off every single time, eventually no matter how much I consumed, it no longer worked as intended and just became a pointless habit.

In the past few years I found that each day around 11am I would feel nausia and stomach pains, I knew it was from the cannabis but I just lied to myself and said it was due to what I ate.
I would feel physically ill, dry retch, sweat and all sorts. Pretty sure I was in the begining stages of CHS... I decided to quit, I stopped cold turkey and spent a week being bed ridden with anxiety and horrible feelings.... It started to get better, I no longer craved it.

After a few months of no smoking I was at a wedding and fell into the trap of "just one puff wont hurt".... well.. you guessed it, it did.

I tried to tell myself I could smoke on the weekends, or once a week... that quickly turned into "well you have some left over from yesterday, whats the harm in smoking it today"
then that turned into, well you smoke once a week so might aswell do it properly, buy a quarter ounce and smoke it all in one night... which turned to left over weed lasting for a few days, then friday came round again and I had just been smoking all week... Which turned into full blown addiction again...

The symptoms of CHS returned... but worse this time, I couldnt explain it to people, I felt weak and useless... my eating habits were horrible and I gained almost 20kg, felt like trash all the time, was muddling my words and turning into a complete loser once again...

I wrote some notes and took a picture of them and put them on my home screen "its hot and your back hurts when you are fat" "dont be weak" "live longer and be healthy"

none of it worked...

But finally... I had the worst bout of CHS ever, completly ruined a whole week for me, doubling over in pain, stomach cramps, vomiting, the works...

That was it, I threw everything away and told myself that is the end... I did hunt for crumbs in moments of weakness... But I held strong and I am now 7 Days with zero weed, the anxiety is still there abit, I still have some odd feelings... But we are doing it, and I know my triggers and what happens If I decided to have "just one more" and I wont do that...

Heres to my health..

Im looking to purchase some watercress late next week to use in a boil up I am going to attempt to make on Monday while I wait for the UFC to kick off.
Any places I can go and buy it? Im a little worried about trying to find it myself haha.

Also any tips for a delicious beef boil up would be ideal :D

If you are using a tablet to draw / paint in rust, what are you using ?
I tried to get my iPad Pro to work but Rust wasn’t having it.

Does anyone use an Ipad pro and use it to paint in rust? If so, how do you do it? Please :)

Im getting a T3 myself now, no buying from clans.
Im getting T3 guns and other bits on wipe day, my base has armored doors day 1
Im getting far more farm than I need and without the worry of getting shot in the back

I play a range of vanilla - 2x vanilla style servers, mostly with no team limit and reaching around 400 ish on wipe, all solo.
You can pick your fights much easier in the ocean and be in and out with a good haul in no time.

I dont care that big groups are getting AK and controlling monuments, Ill happily buy my T3 in a few days from your shop with whatever you want.

What I think would help the situation and keep servers from dying so fast, is just make explosives cost double or triple the price, HV rockets included.

Yes the clans still get a bunch of boom, but not as much... hopefully they think twice before raiding my key lock home on day 1 or 2, or pass over it all together to save their boom for a more profitable or exciting raid.

Ammo for guns would still be cheap, people would roam still creating stories between different groups -making meaningful raids again.

I dunno... I like the game evolving, but when a few groups can stomp a full pop server in a day or two by simply having excessive amounts of easily accessible explosives, it gets old quick.
I just want to have enough time to build a proper house.

PS - LET THE HELI GO DOWN WHERE IT DIES!!!