Just a sad rant.
So we finalized the guest count, and are a month away. I thought we had at least 50 guest… nope. We only have 37 adults (I’m not counting the kids but we do have a few kids coming!)
Everything is paid for already but I really regret doing the big wedding instead of just eloping and a dinner. I’m so worried my wedding won’t be as fun as I always imagined. I knew 50 would be risky but we didn’t even meet 50?
We only spent $500 on our dj, so like if the dance floor is a bust it’s not a huge loss but I worry it won’t be fun, like the beginning of a middle school dance where people are afraid to get on the dance floor and nobody else is so nobody wants to start? Or like only a few people at a time so it’s not a fun party.
My bridal party and friends ensures me well have a great time and it’ll be fun loved night. And I know the only thing that matters is if myself and my FH have a good time. I just always envisioned and been to weddings with 100+ people and with the amount of money we spent, I’m just getting insecure with what we have.
IM NOT DISSING on micro weddings. I just regret going about it the way we did because I feel like we don’t have enough people for the “full wedding” experience and I worry everything will look so silly being such a low guest count.
And I know this is probably just stress and anxiety as we lead to the big day, my fiancé complains to me every day about our finances and how we went way over budget for both our wedding and honeymoon and he’s constantly coming to me about money stress which of course makes me regret my decision because if it was up to him we would’ve just went to the courthouse.
I’m just feeling so blah and needed to rant.