Update: 28/30 days!
Update to my last post: https://www.reddit.com/r/Petioles/s/aUffRzJWEe
Almost at 30 days! Not a huge fan of the color scheme I have going on but these are the pens I had lol. I don’t have cravings at this point per se, but I do miss getting high. I’m struggling with whether or not I want to get high to celebrate, or if I should try to keep going. I think I want to try to keep going. Part of me wonders if I can have a good, moderated relationship with weed or if it’s better for me to stop for a much longer period of time (I’m thinking 90 days - a year) and to make it only a few times a year kind of thing.
I have noticed a lot of positive changes:
- Vivid dreams came back almost immediately in the first week, but surprisingly got MUCH more vivid, complex and frequent starting just this week.
-I have had the motivation to journal every day or every other day. I started a learning a new art medium.
- My bedtime routine was almost non existent while smoking, but now it’s much easier to wind down in the evenings and go to bed at a reasonable time. I found this surprising because I always have said that weed “helps me sleep”. I’m now realizing how much it’s held me back from developing healthy nighttime habits.
- My emotions are not as numbed. I laugh more freely and feel things more deeply. Therapy sessions feel more productive because of this, and because I’m actually able to remember more of what I experienced and felt during the week.
- My short term memory is much better. A lot less embarrassing moments with people close to me where I forgot something important that they told me.
- I have these moments where I feel intensely giggly and “high”, which I attribute to my brain starting to become more sensitive to my natural cannabinoids. I had kinda forgotten that these feelings are normal while sober, but that being high frequently made it so I could only feel those ways while high, if that makes sense.
- I appreciate the sober experience so much more. Food tastes better in the sense that I’m not just fulfilling high cravings and gorging myself, I’m actually experiencing the flavor. I can appreciate things more for how they really are.
There’s probably some more stuff I’m forgetting but this is the stuff I’ve primarily noticed!