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Me and my ex were in a long-distance relationship for almost 4 years. We were the ideal couple for many people. We had fights, but overall, it was a really good and smooth relationship until she went to Hyderabad for an internship. Fuck that internship!

For the internship, she went as part of a group of 4: two guys and two girls, including her. The other girl was her roommate, and they had been roommates for the past 3-4 years. Let’s call the other two guys Y and Z. This Y had liked my ex since first year, and she had told me about it back then. But I trusted my girl a lot, so I didn’t care that they had to go together.

One day in Hyderabad, my ex and Y were sitting together on the train while the other two were somewhere else. A random creep then took a photo of my ex. Y handled the situation and made the creep delete it. My ex was impressed. She told me everything and appreciated what Y did. Honestly, I also thought Y did the right thing because every guy is supposed to do that. I even told her, “Yeah, he did a great job.”

After that, my ex started talking about Y and everything happening there. Then Y began making moves on her. He was very obviously hitting on her, and after a point, both me and my ex knew it. I started feeling insecure, so I asked her to keep some distance from him. I never asked her to completely avoid him because she had to interact with him anyway since they were alone there. I only asked her to maintain some distance. But my ex’s response was, “eda avan korech kozhi aanenne ollu, avan oru gentleman aan. Paavam aan.” Ennoke…I was like, whatever, just keep some distance.

What happened after that really hurt me. Every single day, she would tell me how close she was with Y, how he kept his hands on her shoulder, how they walked together, and stuff like that. She had no regret about telling me these things and actually sounded proud of it. What hurt me most was that she knew I was insecure, but still didn’t make any effort to reassure me. I told her about this every day, but she kept saying, “enik avane avoid cheyan patila because I have to see him every day.” Njan paranju avoid cheyanda, but at least keep some distance. Still, she kept repeating the same thing. She also kept telling me that whenever all four of them walked together, it was always my ex and Y walking together. I told her, either walk with your roommate, or walk with the other guy, or all 4 go together. Her explanation was, “njanum Y um short aan in terms of height. So njangal matte rand perude koode nadannal legs thammil hit cheyum. Athukond aan njanum Y um orumich nadakune.” Andi.

This continued until I couldn’t take it anymore. One day, I told her that she was making me insecure every single day. Her response was, “if you are insecure, then just leave.”
So I left. We broke up. She cried a little when I said breakup, but she agreed too. We decided to stay good friends and still kept in contact. One time, after our breakup, she even asked whether it’s fine if she dates Y. It sounded very weird but she asked it in a joking tone so I really didn’t take it to heart (she was serious though). We didn’t block or unfollow each other. Moving on was extremely difficult for me. I missed her a lot and was really sad about the breakup. Then, just 1-2 weeks later, she started posting photos and stories where she and Y were physically close, as if nothing had happened. I was already struggling with the breakup. Seeing her post with the same guy who ruined our 4 year relationship completely broke me. I’m happy that she can move on, but doing it so soon after our breakup, especially with Y, made me really sad. It felt like I never mattered for her. After seeing 2-3 posts like that, I unfollowed her because I couldn’t take it anymore. Keep in mind that we were still on good terms even after the breakup. But when she noticed I had unfollowed her, she didn’t ask if I was okay or anything. She simply unfollowed me from every IG handle.

Things stayed like that for 1-2 months. Then last week, my friend called my ex for something. He later told me that her voice was trembling when she talked about me. I felt sad because I thought she still hadn’t moved on from me, and I started thinking that maybe I had misunderstood her. My friend asked her if there was anything between her and Y. Her response was, “eda podaa nee enthuva ingane oke parayune?!” Anyway, I decided to call her one last time just to check if she was okay (ik I am a dumfuck). I even thought about following her back and ending the non-talking period.

I called her, checked on her, and told her not to worry. We were talking about something when, all of a sudden, she said, “eda I have something to say, I have feelings for Y. Y too has feelings for me. We both talked about it to each other.”
I was heartbroken again. Ik ik she is single now and has every right to love whoever she wants. But I’m still hurt because my intuition was right all along. During our relation, “he was just a friend” ennan aval paranje. See how it turned now! I trusted her so much, yet she ended up developing feelings for the same guy who ruined our relationship. If it were any other guy, I would have actually been happy for her, thinking she moved on. I’m only hurt because it’s Y. Y was trying to take her away from me and he succeeded. I never expected something like this to happen from her side, so I was heartbroken.

Then she said Y isn’t as good as me, so they wouldn’t be getting into a relationship and blah blah blah. I told her, “it’s your life, so choose carefully.” I decided to end the call because avale care cheyan poyitt njan umfiye avastha aayi.
But before we ended the call, she told me one more thing. The four of them had moved from the hostel to flats. One day, my ex and Y were alone in a room, and they both kissed each other. She said she did it because she was too traumatised by our breakup and she found comfort in him. Yk she was so traumatised cuz of our breakup that she kissed the exact same guy who was the reason for our breakup. Athoode kettapo ente control poyi.

I immediately asked her to end the call. I told her it was better to continue things the way they were and have a no-talking period. Then I cried a river. Ik she did all of this after breaking up with me, so technically she didn’t cheat on me or anything. I understand that. But I still feel completely heartbroken, guys.
My intuition was right, and everything ended up exactly where I feared it would. I want her to move on, but then doing all this with Y makes it look like I had 0 value. It looks like this 4 years meant nothing to her. She easily jumped to Y, and THAT TOO TO Y! Her reasoning also makes 0 sense to me.

I just can’t forget that this happened. I’m suffering a lot recently. What will I do?

Infosys OA is scheduled for this week, and I thought I’d start preparing using the sample questions provided by Infosys (HackWithInfy). But even the easy questions in that set seem pretty difficult. So, how are you all preparing? Are you using those PDFs or any other resources?