u/rapid-ascent

Any guidance or direction appreciated.. I’m in Florida

15 years ago I was dosing psychedelics weekly, as well as distributing lsd, dmt psilocybin and mdma around town

Did I open a portal for nhi’s to access me? I was using dmt often..

Here’s the thing that I think might be an experience:

It was late at night, I was sleeping under the covers/comforter with my gf at the time. She was close to the wall, I was sleeping on side of bed that wasn’t attached to the wall.

It started with me astral projecting/lucid dreaming for the first time. (I Read a book on lucid dreaming techniques and always tried, never worked until this night) I was quickly woken up out of it and realized I was in sleep paralysis. I didn’t panic as I had this happen once before and I knew (or thought) it was just a natural phenomenon

But I realized I heard a noise. It sounded like a horse was galloping from the distance. It was galloping outside of my closed bedroom door. Like it was galloping through puddles of water as it got closer. The lights were flickering on and off outside of my door in the hall way, my door was closed but I could see the flicker under the door slit.

The horse arrived outside my door, at that point I felt a strange shadowy figure just outside my periphery (sleep paralysis I couldn’t look to my right) then I felt physical hands grabbing at my body from my feet up to my neck, I felt these hands through the comforter and sheets, so whatever grabbed me didn’t let physical sheets hold them back frkm touching me physically. They went through the sheets.

I then heard an evil voice say “you’re going to fucking hell”

That’s when I panicked and my gf woke up and shook me out of the paralysis

Now, I never thought it could be an “abduction” until my perception of aliens shifted when I learned the multidimensional and demonic aspect of some of these nhi (apparently).

3 weeks ago, I was under a lot of stress and dealing with raw emotions. I had been meaning to set aside time to learn how to focus in mediation. So I figured I should try it now since the stress had me crying. I quieted my minds voices, everything went silent around me, and I felt super sharp and focused, and I cried out to the universe to god to take my pain away. And in that moment I felt a surge of euphoria sweep over my body from head to toe. It was more intense than any mdma I’ve done. The rush lasted 5 minutes and I was shaking for ten minutes after. I was convinced an NHI heard me and invoked some kind of healing power that blocked my pain

I’m just looking for feedback. Were these real experiences