u/relieved-soul-24

I’m not in a good emotional state I am feeling lonely and it’s too heavy. I don’t even know how to fix it. Coming to study abroad is a blessing that happened to me but I am scared that I am not adapting. Everyone at uni seems to want by themselves or by the people that are already friends with them. People are not outgoing and connecting with people feels extremely hard. I’m scared of how I can survive emotionally without a community. Everyday it hurts me to just be by myself but seeing almost everyone with everyone. Back in my home country it was effortless to feel included in the community but now i have lost my sense of belonging. I have judged my self and thought that maybe I’m not good enough. I have tried to think about ways that I can improve my situation but all in vain. Is there anyone else who has ever felt like this? And what did you do to practically improve your situation? I’m loosing it 😭😭😭 I am a student at University of Glasgow but stay in paisley. On top of the commute, I am also struggling with this

Is there anyone who commutes to paisley here? Maybe we can always commute together and hang out sometimes?! I don’t regret my choice to commute but I know that it’s usually not easy because all the university life happens around Glasgow.

I applied on 7th August
Did biometrics on 11th August
Delay email on 19th August
Successful email on 1st September 18:26 Europe time
Vfs center Bucharest (but I’m not an EU citizen)
I hope that everyone will get their awaited visas 😍😍

I’m an African girl in Europe I grew up in a not to do well family and really that trauma is just enough to make someone go crazy. My teenage life I was so broke staying home wishing things could be better. I literally had no clothes, shoes and just basic needs apart from food and home. I don’t blame my parents for this because I could see that life also fucked them up and well I was hoping for a big miracle. My dad died during all that chaos and what hurts me is he died a poor man in the hospital without even money to take care of him. I try to keep it at the back of my mind (though it’s still my reality) I went to work as a domestic househelp in the Middle East and you can’t imagine how hard it is and all the things I had to pass through. I was lucky enough and got selected for the Romanian state scholarship. Thank God coz my tolerance for all this painful life was wearing down. Right now being in Romania life is a bit stable. But I am stuck in trauma mode. I don’t remember a day I felt safe in my body and surroundings. I feel it everyday that I can’t be grounded and this is painful too coz life is still not easy (even if it’s a bit stable) it’s really difficult to bring my mind from wondering. I can’t sleep and even when I sleep I wake up in the middle of the night and I can’t sleep again. I don’t remember a time I felt home in my body and brain. I’m wondering if this is how I will have to live my life since I can’t delete my traumatic past. 😭😭