u/rustedsilvur

I've been consuming a lot of content about different types of OCD, compulsions etc because I think im finally ready to get a diagnosis. But when I research these things I feel like im having more obsessive intrusive thoughts. I'm certain I have harm and sexual OCD, and considering I've been seeing more harm OCD content, even though I have more sexually intrusive thoughts typically, I've been getting more harmful intrusive thoughts. iykwim? I don't know if I should continue consuming the content, because i will feel less anxious getting a diagnosis if I collect my thoughts and symptoms, so I'm sure I haven't been lying to myself this entire time; or if I stop and see if my symptoms lessen altogether. I'm not Jon quinones, but wwyd?

DO NOT say that I'm 18 and I can legally do what I want it will pmo. I still live in my family house, if you understand the cost of living in Londin you'll understand why. I'm tired of having to ask to go out and my mum says no because she thinks I'm meeting strange people, or just because she's racist. She'll always tell me that girls my age are looking after themselves doing makeup etc, then I ask her why I can't do what other girl's do like hangout with my friends and she starts screaming. I'll be starting work in 1 month and I've already been talking online with other students who are starting then too. They're arranging dates to meet up and hangout before work and I'm embarrassed having to make up an excuse because I can't go. Soon I'll be earning my own money and having to chip in with rent and my brothers school, yet I can't be treated like an adult?

I know some companies offer fast track from l4 to l6 but is it better to just move to a normal job since you have a qualification and experience? Primarily in tech because supposedly you shouldn't stick to one company for too long