u/sad-throwaway-sad

Around a year ago I joined a new job and “M” was assigned to help me get adjusted. A man, that too a good looking one, so I already was on edge. But that was unnecessary.

M was very kind and supportive, patient throughout my learning period. He also made it so easy to talk to him.

Over the next year, M made sure to include me in conversations and integrate me with the rest of the team. We also spent a lot of time together during work as our tasks were similar, leading to lots of shared lunch breaks together. He showed genuine interest in my hobbies and told me to post the poems I wrote online. Conversations with him were so fun and easy, we yapped a whole bunch.

And I, like a fool, started to fall for him. I have never had any man be so good to me.

I knew better, I knew guys have no romantic/sexual interest in me, but still I let myself get carried away. I found myself being delusional, thinking of us being a couple. I looked forward to work everyday. I even put makeup on lol.

We had talked about dating generally before, well he talked mostly, I just pretended I have had more experience than just online “relationships”. But, a few weeks ago he actually showed me a picture of him and his ex.

My chest legitimately hurt seeing her. Beautiful face and amazing body. She had a crop top and shorts on in the picture, the type of clothes I couldn’t dream of wearing with my body. Smooth skin with no blemishes. Simply gorgeous.

I knew right then M would never even dream of dating me. I look like a gargoyle compared to his ex.

Not that I had high hope, but still a tiny part of me was hoping, and that’s why it hurts so much. I even shed few tears lmao.

Sorry for a long post, I have no one to share this with. This finally pushed me to make an account to post on here after years of lurking.

I like making mood boards and have ideas for Dark Romance mood boards, specific to particular stories and more general, that I would love to make and post on here.

But as they are Dark Romance, the ideas are quite suggestive, nothing explicit but semi-nudity, BDSM aesthetics, etc.

Rule 9 and 10 is the reason I am asking, they won’t contain explicit or pornographic images, but I guess this is a gray area.

All of her criticisms are hand waved away because she is “young”. I could understand this when she debuted but she is 23 years old now.

It’s been 5 years since she became a legal adult but people still treat her with kiddie gloves.

I don’t know why this is. Is it people believing the idiotic “brain not developed till 25” myth or is it because of her image?

Whatever it is, it is exclusively for Olivia, none of her peers gets this grace. With the way people tear Billie and Sabrina to shreds, you would think they are a decade older than Olivia.

No other popstar will be on this demographics radar and if one does come up they will be mocked and disrespected.

Not Olivia though. She is punk. She is rock. The future of the genres.

Olivia really plays into it, all of her music taste caters to this demographic and she will dress for the male gaze. Making her the exception.

If Olivia didn’t look the way she did her high school lyrics and themes would never be taken serious.

We know how the industry is, you need to have an attractive face and body to make it or no matter how talented you are you won’t be getting in.

From getting a proven producer to brand deals to getting the “serious artist” moniker, Olivia rides off her looks.

And that would be fine all artists do it, but Olivia wants to be punk. Female pioneers of punk actively made themselves looked over the top and garish, as opposed to Olivia who is always perfectly made up.

Drake released three albums at the same time, without any physicals or different versions and sold the same as Oliva with ICEMAN, combined with other two albums he sold around 700k. He also had near zero radio play but still got a #1 single, and filled the top 10, as opposed to the insane hype behind Olivia’s singles and their under performance.

My point is, Olivia needed physicals, multiple versions and making stream guides for her fans to get a similar number. This proves my theory of there being a PR push for Olivia, and astroturfing online.

She is popular no doubt but you would think Olivia was the biggest and most aclaimed artist in the world with the way people talk of her.