u/saltycookie7708

I realized that since I am isolated ,I've unconsciously sought approval from my boss who was overworking and being mean to me ,I kept feeling a big gap and void in my chest and it didn't go away until I full on decided to set boundaries (after he treated me badly again when I came earlier to finish a project ) .

There is an exile that seems to dislike when I act overly humble but it seems necessary for me at the moment ,how do I even address it because it doesn't seem to offer clear cut response when I ask what it expects from me

The day before yesterday I found a cat hit by a car ,I tried to take him to the vet and I was losing it ,and the vet was closed and the taxi got impatient and took me back to pay him (we agreed at first to pay him when I got card).

I kept calling emergency vet and none was answering and I was losing it because the cat was struggling and seemed in terminal state and sometimes roaming from pain ,I stayed awake when he had crises of pain so he could at least have a peaceful death and kept covering him with a blanket and telling him he wasn't alone .

Morning came and that cat was still alive ,so I raaaan to beg for a ride ,I found a taxi ,called a vet and they said it was a holiday but they will come at 9 (I went at 7) ,they were late the kitty was struggling and I kept covering him ,I was seriously freaking TF out because I was scared he would die before the vet comes .

Then the vet finally came and after a bit they took the kitty for operation ,he will stay in vet few days and apparently the vet is hopeful it will go well and I am as well because I want to see him better and make biscuits and find him an owner .

I am proud of myself because I am an extremely emotional person who easily cracks during pressure and crashes out (I am working on it lol),so doing all of this and covering the cat while he was struggling is an achievement (and it apparently helped bc his temperature was low)

I will be providing a cat tax when I get the cat from the vet ,they decided to name him tiger .

This is the perspective of a complete amateur still learning ,I am not talking about individual accounts ,I am talking about companies like google ,meta ...ect.

Long ago ,you got a headline everytime but now it seems like that is no longer the case ,is their security that flawless ?

I am someone who had severe cPTSD for a long time ,due to along here history of childhood trauma (in addition to being bullied for most of my life) ,that caused me a wide range of issues that I took a while to fix ,for example I managed to restore my executive function (after having a compromised one) ,I changed my in default rude speech ,I restored my memory function ,I am no longer depressed ,I worked on my social anxiety and general to the point where I am comfortable doing anything in public (as opposed to never leaving the house from shame) ,I worked on shame and inner critic and my world view ectt ,anger issues ,depression and proscrastination ,ADHD like symptoms and ocd ect..

Point is ,I had an immense amount of issues and anything I worked on ,I managed to successfully overcome after a while .

The list goes on but point is ,I worked on the load of dysfunction and successfully overcame it ,one thing I carried though that seems permanent is a lack of attachement towards people .

I am capable of compassion ,I help people and can quite "love" them but I can't get attached to them , It's like I can easily end a friendship of years and I wouldn't feel affected or no matter what relationship end ,I don't get too fazed ,I wonder if this is a defence mechanism but it makes me feel almost inhuman now ,like I lack something human compared to others .

see people crying when they leave a place ,I observed people crying when leaving each other (even as a kid) ,it feels very foreign and strange to me and I wonder why am I like this and is it changeable.