u/santashentai

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Using AI/photoshop to change childhood photos?

Before calling me Ai slop, let me explain what i was thinking about and how i found this idea. My mom always loved taking thousands of photo of me and my little brother when we were little kids. Unfortunately, she also loved to dress me up with pink tutus and anything feminine. Which leads me to currently get exposed to disgusting childhood photos of mine or no photo at all sometimes. I probably only have 2-3 photos of me actually looking like the little Boy I actually was.

I kinda noticed that people actually have free will to change childhood photos.Which also increadibly good for people who are stealth too. If we just photoshop or use AI to change the photos. Like, removing a pink tutu or shortening the hair. Stuffs like that honestly.

While it might look like a fake reality, I feel like it can be comforting to have childhood photos of your own. And also maybe can help with dysphoria since losing a big chunk of your life is also very dysphoric and saddening. I haven't tried it, I studied graphic design during highschool,so I may just tried to photoshop it first. And see if it is possible to do it.

I also wonder what you guys are thinking about this possibility. Again, it is just a possibility I noticed. If you think it is unnecessary it is also understandable.

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u/santashentai — 3 days ago
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I hate when they asks if there is any 'cis men' when it is a freaking rythm game.

What's the point of them asking if there is any cis men? It happened in ensemble stars honestly. A rythm game.
I do love cute rythm games a lot. Especially since my collage to home takes hours and these games are good for spending time.

But just like pinterest or any other female dominated space, trans man are treated default queer. My birth condition shouldn't be making me 'different' than cis man for a freaking game.

Like, I am not queer. I don't see myself as a part of lgbt community. I don't feel included in lgbt spaces. If you are, it is good. But it is just not for me. Therefore Why am I not being considered as 'basic' as any other cis man?

It is just so dysphoric that even in the most basic thing such as a game, there is people that willing to make me dysphoric for their 'no cis white straight man plays this game, or are they? Omg they are so rare🥹🥹🥹' bullshit.

I am just a man, let me be. It makes me so depressed and dysphoric. Let me just play my rythm game.

Edit: I was arguing in that post I talked about. And one of them said I have self hate and queerphobia just because of I said not every trans man is queer and as an example, I don't identify as a queer man.it is crazy that they cannot understand that non-queer straight binary trans men exists.

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u/santashentai — 9 days ago

It feels like I will never be normal because of these people.

I do love cute rythm games a lot. Especially since my collage to home takes hours and these games are good for spending time.

But just like pinterest or any other female dominated space, trans man are treated default queer. My birth condition shouldn't be making me 'different' than cis man for a freaking game.

Like, I am not queer. I don't see myself as a part of lgbt community. I don't feel included in lgbt spaces. If you are, it is good. But it is just not for me. Therefore Why am I not being considered as 'basic' as any other cis man?

It is just so dysphoric that even in the most basic thing such as a game, there is people that willing to make me dysphoric for their 'no cis white straight man plays this game, or are they? Omg they are so rare🥹🥹🥹' bullshit

u/santashentai — 9 days ago
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exercises like leg raises makes me have fake period cramps?

I am on T more than 1.5 year, I fully pass etc. But I haven't been working out for 108 days. Due to my top surgery. Lately I began to work out again. Cuz I gained a little bit tummy fat and I was uncomfortable.

So, I started to the abs exercises I normally used to do. But the next day I thought I was getting my period. I was so worried too. But I didn't and it gone when I stopped working out.

I started to work out again, I noticed I actually feel period like cramps again especially when I do leg raises. Is it something I should be concerned? It doesn't feels like stomach ache. It is lower and i still remember how these cramps were like anyway.

Should I be worried? Or is it normal? Sorry if it is a stupid question too, I just never experienced that kind of ache after working out.

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u/santashentai — 13 days ago

|Post op-107 day| Pedicled nipples|

I have talked about my monster doc a lot, and I was planning to sue him but stuffs happened and I will explain;

While he doesn't wants to remove my pedicle or Resize my nipple (I don't trust him at all already. A huge transphobe since he thinks T is killing trans men) even though I didnt wanted a pedicle at all.

He kept saying how nice my chest is and other shits like that since I looked like I can sue him.

He says he only will be doing free lipo. And says it would fix it. Also even processed to tell me he can give me gym drugs? To make me muscular or burn fat cuz he thinks testosterone makes fat. I don't accept any drug honestly.

But my mom says I should get the free lipo in future. And she promised me she will pay my pedicle removal and nipple resizement surgeries. Pedicles makes me so fucking dysphoric but doctor acted like it is awesome. He didn't even knew what's gender dysphoria.

She thinks if i can get the lipo, we will pay less for the revision surgery we will be getting in a better doctor. But since pedicle removal is a serious surgery already, won't we gonna pay a regular top surgery money already?

Should I trust her and the doc? I geniunely hate the doctor but I am so poor and I just want the Pain end. Please don't give me any hug boxxing by saying you look cis. It only makes me feel angry. Thanks.

u/santashentai — 15 days ago

So, I was working on my bjd. And I was using a Utility knife. It is old, has some rust on it. And accidently cut my thumb with it. It did bleed.

I tried to squeeze the blood out in case it got dirty then I washed it with water then squeezed some lemon colagne before wrapping with first Aid bandaids.

My mom says I won't get tetanus. But I think I got my last shot at around 13? (I cut myself accidently often) I am 20 now. I probably got that shot 3 times in my whole life? But I heard it is something you should get once in 5 years and it obviously more than 5 years currently

That utility knife always been in our drawer. We don't even use it a lot. Sometimes I use when I can't find the scissor.

*second photo from this morning

Edit:I got my shot!

u/santashentai — 20 days ago