u/scandinavian-angel

Something I hear my BPD mother (diagnosed, but untreated) say often despite a huge chunk of my life being dedicated to helping her manage her symptoms and get better. When she was having mental breakdowns every day when I was in high school I watched video after video learning how to help. When I had panic attacks I was told it’s all just in my head and when I tried to go to her for help with my addiction issues she said she didn’t want to deal with it.

If you have a partner with untreated BPD who is not willing to get better, then please consider the toll this will take on your children.

I’m 29 and live with my parents now after my long term relationship ended. I work full time but have no social life and the only time I feel comfortable socializing is when I’m high, I am too awkward to do it sober and always end up embarrassing myself. I am 4 years clean of opiates and I see no point anymore, I’m not going to do anything important with my life anyway.

I just needed to vent because I don’t feel comfortable burdening anyone in my life with this information and I don’t want them to know.