u/separate_arm666

Sorry if this is a dumb question. I've been wanting to wear colored contacts for an event and I went in and asked about the fitting in a store. I asked about the curvature of the eyes and if that needs to be tested and they told me that its usually tested by just putting the lenses on your eyes. So my question is, why can't I do that at home? Should they be testing it some other way? I don't have issues with my eye sight so I don't need prescription lenses. They also told me I won't need a normal check up since I can see just fine.

Obviously yes, the store would have more size options so by fitting there I would know what I need. But I don't have time to order lenses so if the ones I can buy in person don't fit, I just won't wear contacts.

CW: suicide talk

This is probably a very common post here, sorry about that, but it just hit me again for the who knows how manyeth time. I'm 24 and have had chronic pain in my hands and legs for about 2,5 years now. Its not even the physical pain that kills me anymore, its the mental. I've had to quit every hobby and now I just sit inside all day. I used to be an artist and a gamer, those were all I really needed in life.

I doubt I'll make it very far in life. I can't talk about this to anyone because I don't think people realize how badly this pain affects me. My family still keeps talking like I'm gonna get better and my friends just ignore it. I know its sad and difficult to accept, I don't want to die either, but I some how wish I could just say it and make them understand that they will be attending my funeral sooner or later. I have literally lost everything even before my life fully started and I know there is no hope for recovery.

Like I know I have a tendency to think of the worst possible outcome and be depressive but this time just logically thinking about it, I don't see a way that I can live my life. I doubt therapy or meds will work. I doubt I'll find something that replaces art and games. I doubt I'll find love. I'm just clinging onto the last little pieces of happiness but I don't know how long I can keep it up.

I don't know what I'm looking for with this post, probably just venting but if you have similar thoughts or hopeful stories I'll gladly hear them.

Edit: I found it! The name of the drama is "Inarizaki Team Meeting of the new year!" The video with english translation is on bilibili.

Hey I found this clip on tiktok and tried to look for the full video but I can't find it. The channel it was on has deleted everything. My problem is that I don't even know the name of it. I know its not the one where they find out Kitas weakness but theres no other Inarizaki drama listed anywhere... So does anyone have any idea where this is even from?

https://reddit.com/link/1t733ho/video/uq1oi3vewvzg1/player

If you transitioned and it didn't turn out the way you imagined, like you didn't get the muscle, beard, voice etc. you wanted, was it still worth it for you? Like did it all just work okay for you in the end anyway?

I'm super dysphoric about my hips. I'm totally pear shaped like there is no way to hide my hips so no clothes fit the way I really want them to.

I've been on the fence about transitioning for a lot of reasons but lately I've been thinking if its worth it if I can't look the way I'd want to. I'm disabled and can't work out (especially my arms and shoulders) so going to the gym won't help me... I know HRT can bulk you up a bit but I don't wanna bet on it too much since its not really guaranteed. If I don't transition I'll at least look nice as a woman.

I don't really know what to do. I wasn't exactly confident before I came out but now it just feels worse. I'm scared I'm gonna feel even worse after taking T if I have other masculine traits but I'm still stuck with my body shape.