u/seven_deadlysins13

I’ve been friends with this girl for over 10+ years. And a year ago, she moved away, and we haven’t seen each other since. Life is busy, but it’s been a year and she hasn’t made any time to see me, we barely talk now- and just today while I was telling her how i felt- she just.. left me on read. For context she lives 30 minutes away. If yall have specific questions I can answer, but no her life isn’t ridiculously busy- and even when it is, she always makes time to see her boyfriend, an her other friends.

I’m in grade 11 and was up until this point wanting to be an architect - so I didn’t take any science in grade 11. And only took mixed maths in this grade too. I recently though decided that I had a passion for astrobiology and really want to pursue it, I’m really worried about not being smart enough. I had a 60 in my mixed maths. I didn’t take any science, but I finished my science in grade 10 with 78%. I have also recently been diagnosed with ADHD and would be able to get medication & special help with my schooling, I haven’t really done well in math ever, but I’m thinking that if I have my help in my medication, I’ll be able to do really well.
Where I’m going with this is if I wanted to be an astrobiologist I would have to retake or no sorry not retake. I would have to take advanced maths (grade 12), grade 11 advanced maths. I would have to take biology once and twice to make up for not taking it in grade 11 and then I would have to take Chem .
I have to make this decision in about 2 to 3 days and I’m very anxious because I’m scared that if I make the decision to take all of these maths and sciences, I won’t be smart enough to actually do well in them and I’ll just end up being a failure. I’m also scared that if I don’t, I pursue something I don’t really like I’ll live the rest of my life in misery and Ill always wonder what could’ve been if I would’ve just tried.

I was trying to clear out some storage on my iPad, and wanted to delete Notes because on my iPad, I never used it. I deleted it, and I went to open my notes on my IPhone because I wanted to double check it didn’t delete there (because iPad and iPhone logged into same account.) yes I know I’m dumb anyway. So it’s gone. I called Apple support and they couldn’t help me because for some gosh darn reason my recently deleted folder was gone???? I know for sure I didn’t delete it off iCloud, only to turn off. Can someone help me?

So for about 2 years I’ve known I’m pansexual/panromantic, I don’t care much for people’s gender/orientation when it comes to attraction, I just see good looking people and if I’m attracted I’m attracted. But for much longer than that, I’ve been very anti relationship, they made me feel icky, and panicked. Whenever I’d find interest in someone to the point of even wanting a relationship- I’d get uncomfortable with it- feelings like it wasn’t right for me. I’ve already looked into lithromantic but I don’t think I align with that necessarily because I have been in ONE relationship so far and I enjoyed it- but I think the only reason I do, is because I felt so connected with them. I find I very rarely have genuine crushes on people, and any sort of sexual relationship comes MUCH later for me- I don’t feel the desire to act upon my romantic/sexual feelings with someone without a deep connection- and even then, ITS SO RARE. I know I’m not 100% aroace, and I feel guilty for even applying the title to my self, I’m just confused. :( ps, sorry if I offended anyone or said anything wrong, I’m unsure of this label and how it works and I’m open to learning.