u/sexysalad10

I struggle with chronic utis and an overractive bladder that will just not go away. I’ve had them for the past 3 and a half years. I’m constantly in pain and I feel like a hallow shell of the person I used to be.Its effected my relationships, my social life, my mental health and my spirituality. For a person who has had a uti u could probably relate to the pain I’m feeling and if u can’t than consider yourself so so lucky.

I’ve done everything
I wipe front to back
I pee after sex
I took d mannose
I drink litres upon litres of water
I lost weight
I went to the doctors
I’ve undergone surgery

Nobody knows the cause

I feel like I get uti just by breathing at this point

My body has become immune to the antibiotics and I’m tired of being in pain all the time.

I’m beginning to think my case is spiritual

Id be so grateful to receive any tips whether medical or spiritual

Please I’ll do anything I just want the pain to stop
I just want to be normal again

For context he was not my first love, but I’d be lying if I said he wasn’t the man I loved the more than anyone.

It’s been well over a year now since we broke up but I still think about him daily.In reality we aren’t together and that chapter in my life has ended but in my mind it’s almost as if nothings ever really changed
I still smile when I think of him
My heart skips a beat every time I listen to his old voice recordings
I even get turned on when I think of how intimate we were
A part of me even day dreams what it would’ve been like if we were still together to date.

Is there something wrong with me?

And if so how do I fix it?

I realise that at some point in my life I need to move on but the thought of being with someone else or being intimate with someone else doesn’t excite me

I miss him dearly but I need to accept that he just isn’t my person anymore and I don’t know how to