And I definitely don't want it to be my wonderful amazing gf of almost 6 months who I don't want to push away.
Lost an fp yesterday and it feels inevitable. I begged him to stick around so I can end things on my terms, or at least keep him till I get a new fp. But he's dead to me
I just don't wanna do this again. I don't think I have it in me
I've noticed many ppl have symptoms that match hEDS but also very many of vEDS, and it's a good amount of people too
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I may be stupid. But could there be a hypermobile vascular type that is not COL3A1, meets criteria for heds but is different??
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I think this post follows the rules I tried to make sure it does, im literally j curious
Because I can't
Like I thrive on stress and I do good but the expectation is to do great and I can't. Like I can easily get a B+ but an A is unattainable. I can have 5+ posters by application but a pub? Forget it. I can do clinical work but 2k hours? Who can do that bc it's not me
I know that what I've got is good but how on earth do you go the extra mile? What am I missing and why am I missing it. There's gotta be something fundamentally wrong with me.
I really want to go to a good school but the only good school it seems like I can get into is my state school and i really really wanna get out of here
Edit: I'm not checking boxes, tho this post reads like that. I just don't get how y'all do everything WITHOUT checking boxes
Ok I've tried to do my own research but it's not working bc I have no clue what to look for
My gf mentioned how she really wanted something to make sure her drawings don't smudge. I forgot if it was for charcoal or for graphite, anyway I wanna get it for her BUT I don't even know what to look for because this is not a medium I have ANY experience in
If y'all have suggestions on what brands to look out for or literally anything else
Lower cost is better bc I'm a broke college student but yk if that's not possible I can make it work