u/sibevo

Hello, it’s been 7 months since I quit the SSRI Citalopram. I got extremely, extremely physically/neurologically sick after I quit. To make a long story short: I had over 30+ symptoms. I was bedridden for 3 months, I couldn’t walk/sleep/eat, and my body felt like it was on fire and being electrocuted 24/7. Hell on earth. It has been the most horrible period of my life.

On this day I only have around 2-3 symptoms left. Which are: low libido (almost fully back), myoclonus in my toes and small tremors in my neck/head.

I don’t really understand what’s going on, but my head feels wobbly. And when I look up or down, I feel like my head is a jelly and can’t keep proper balance. My head feels heavy. I hear cracking noises when I’m not even moving it. This seems to be worsening day by day.

Every 30 seconds I feel a tremor and hear a crack, even when I’m not even moving or holding my head up.

Will this go away?

I heard that you cannot have a beard during interviews, but I was told by a former steward that some stewards keep neat beards as soon as they’re an official steward.

Can anyone confirm?
Have you seen stewards with beards?

BACKGROUND INFO:
I crashed in December 2025, 6 weeks after a 3 month taper of Citalopram 20mg.
Had over more than 30+ symptoms. Bedridden and electrocution 24/7. Symptoms were only physical, neurological and sexual (still unsure of whether this is PSSD or rather withdrawal sexual dysfunction).
I reinstated immediately (a microdose of 1.25mg) and I stabilized in April 2026.

SITUATION NOW (6 months after the crash):
I improved tremendously.
I am left with myoclonus in my toes, mini brain zaps, muscle twitches, a hyperactive nervous system and very low libido as a result of this hyperexcitability. Sexual activity worsens the nerves firing in my body. Therefore I struggle to feel/stay aroused, because it is too activating.
I feel like having butterflies all over my body. In the meantime I tapered down to 0.82mg and expect to be off by the end of December 2026.

QUESTION:
What can I do to speed up the nerve recovery?

Sleep is not affected anymore. Physical activity, unlike sexual activity, does not seem to negatively affect my nervous system.

Hi, for the past couple of years I’ve been making my own Molecule 02 (Ambroxan only) solution with alcohol.

It’s great. But I always end up with lots of crystals that clog the sprayer. I would like to get rid of the crystals.

ChatGPT told me to just add Dipropylene Glycol. Is this the way to go?

I’m a noob.

It’s been 6 months since my severe Citalopram crash (December 2025) and I’ve started tapering once I felt fully stabilized, which was on 1 April (it’s now 6 May 2026).

I was on 1.25mg from December to April. I am now on 0.92mg.

Recently i’ve been feeling bad again. I have myoclonus in my feet, in my head (brain zap-ish) and my libido seems badly affected as well.

I feel like a spastic patient.
I feel like a prisoner. I want to get this poison out of my system.