Why do I feel the need not to complain to others.?
This is a rant, but for ontext, I am making ends meet, all my necessities are covered, but why do I feel the need not to complain, even though I really want to? I am a people pleaser, and that is my own fault, i know this. I currently take care of my mom who is in a wheelchair and showing signs of dementia. I live in a small retirement town. I have some friends here, but I can't go to them about my problems, because I know they don't know what to say and I don't want people I know to worry about me. But I am getting burned out, my life is not moving forward and there is no opportunity for me here, in a job or in relationships.
I feel like my friend's know my life sucks, and I put on a good face about it, but I don't want to bring them down, so I don't complain, but today is especially hard. I'm currently waiting in a queue to talk to a online crisis counselor, but it's taking forever, so there's Reddit. Thank you for reading this and I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense. I just needed to get this out.