Sharing in Case it's Helpful -Morning Journal
I tend to be a "by the book" person. If I have clear instructions that I can refer to, I can follow them. That's been incredibly helpful in AA. The Big Book is literally an instruction manual on how to live a happy joyous and free life. It teaches me the positive solution to my problems so that I no longer rely on alcohol as the destructive solution. I love step 11. The Big Book tells us exactly how to pray and meditate both morning and night. The nightly inventory helps us very specifically examine ourselves and our actions at the end of each day. It even tells us what to do during the day. The steps are a clear and consise action plan for recovery and for how to stay recovered.
This program of action has literally saved and changed my life. I finally understand the term greatful alcoholic. For years before I ever used drinking as my solution, I carried so many resentments and so much self-pity. I was angry that others didn't see how much hurt they caused (which I never let them forget of course.) If I hadn't used alcohol as my solution, then discovered this program, I believe I would have always carried those resentments. I never would have this freedom.