u/skeletalmold

i have been driving for the company for 3 months. i LOVE the delivery aspect, i have become friends with so many shops/their employees, i get a lot of joy out of it. even our RM complimented my customer service, saying that he only hears good things about me and the shops love me. and i love them too!

except one. the problem started when i came in with a little hickey. tmi, i got married 9 months ago and hadn't ever had a hickey, it's a new experience, i didn't mean any harm. but the shop owner started calling me a whore ever since that day. the next time i had a hickey (i should have learned) he touched it while my arms were full of boxes. i was just frozen. i told my manager and ISS about it. the DM said i don't have to go back there anymore when he heard about it. but, we are so shorthanded and i'm the only one who can drive most of the time, so i started going back.

a couple weeks ago, i picked up my cores from him and with the boxes in my arms once again, the owner grabs the collar of my shirt and starts pulling it around "looking for hickeys". again i was just frozen because it's not really something you ever plan on. i know i should have said something but i just get so shocked.

the final straw (i thought): last thursday, i left an hour early and our AS was running deliveries. he happened to go to this shop, where the owner called him back to his office. the shop owner said "you know how to trap a whore?" and showed him a box with a fake d¡ck inside hanging on a little hook. he told our AS that he was going to show it to "that little thang" next time i go back there. AS told manager and ISS and they agreed they're not allowing me to go back there again.

the next morning, it was just me and the manager and he tried to send me back out there. i said no i wasn't going to do it. yesterday, it's just me and iss. he tries to send me back out there too (he can't drive) and i said no. but since then, they keep making comments about needing a driver that can deliver to ALL the shops. and how technically the guy hasn't done anything wrong yet, so i shouldn't get corporate involved. my husband also works for the company, he talked to the DM and he said i don't need to be out there again under any circumstances.

that brings us to today, where they haven't asked me to go again yet but i know it's coming. when do they draw the line and accept that this guy is nuts? he's also threatened to shoot up our store and gypped us out of 9 grand. i just want to get away from him. but WHY do they keep trying to send me out there when there's obviously something he has against me and is being creepy towards me??

i got married a couple days after Christmas and immediately got covid. i was taking so much medicine for fever, sinus infection (augmentin), nausea, and only eating my safe foods (chicken nuggets, fries, etc).

after the sickness, my stomach has never recovered. i feel nauseous after everything i eat, but mostly fried foods, sweet foods, or anything heavy and too much. ive had to face my fear of hospitals and got xrays and a ct scan, and they couldn't find anything. on top of this it's destroyed my immune system and I've been sick once a month

i'm now taking carafate 4 times a day to try and heal my stomach, they think it may be gastritis or an ulcer. i cant even explain how miserable i am. i feel like it's ruined my newlywed season. i'm scared to go do anything because if i feel nauseous i want to be home. ive had emetophobia my whole life and this is just a nightmare. i feel sick almost every day. i can't eat anything. i'm 5'6 and 98 pounds now. i feel like i'm dying. i'm just so heartbroken, it seems the only way to heal is to eat a couple certain foods for months, and i just don't know how to live like that. ive tried my best and nothing is working. i just started carafate and praying it works. i just don't know how to make it through this anymore

everything was looking up in my life. i had a rough childhood and got ptsd from being in the hospital so much, i was so excited because i had finally met my husband and was going to be able to move out soon and get away from all the fighting. i was so happy more than i ever have been in my life.

4 months ago, 2 days after my wedding, i got sick with covid. it was 2 weeks of absolute misery. being sick is one of my biggest triggers because i feel "trapped" in my body like i was in the hospital. i was emotionally distraught. then, either covid or some of the medicine i was taking during it, messed up my stomach severely. i feel nauseous every day of my life, i can't eat hardly anything, i can't go anywhere cos i want to be home if i'm not feeling good, i haven't seen my friends in months because i always feel sick and cancel. i've been to several doctors and done so many tests. i'm finally on a medicine for ulcers to see if that could be the cause. i'm so scared of throwing up and feeling nauseous, and now ive had to deal with that every day for my entire marriage.

on top of that, i've been sick 4 times since the initial covid. i just woke up sick again today. im absolutely losing my mind. my stomach hurts so bad. my throat is so sore. i just feel awful. i have a UTI as well. i can't do it anymore. i'm sobbing every day because it feels like my life is over. every day is misery. it doesn't matter how much i pray, it feels like God has turned me out. i started cutting myself again. i don't want to live like this anymore. i don't know how to keep going on

i had what i believe to be covid right after Christmas (a couple days after my wedding) which lasted over 2 weeks. always get diarrhea with covid and the other weird symptoms matched up to the other few times i've had covid. the diarrhea started a few days in, i was put on augmentin because they thought it may be turning into a sinus infection, and then the diarrhea continued until i stopped augmentin. i had diarrhea for about 10 days straight. when i was taking the augmentin, i always felt nauseous after cos i wasn't eating enough which is how augmentin always is for me regardless.

i got over the sickness, but continued to have slightly loose green stool for at least a month or two. ive always been constipated so this was very different for me. eventually that went away, but no matter what i do, i still feel sick after eating. it's not everything i eat, it's usually fried or heavy or super sweet foods. however, sometimes the food itself won't bother me, i will feel fine until my next meal in which the nausea will start. even if i'm just drinking water, it will trigger the nausea if it wasn't triggered by the heavy food the day before. there is no pain, it's just a super hungry/nauseous feeling. if i eat bland for a few days, then i am able to eat a "bad" food without issue.

i have been tested for c diff and every other possible stool test, x-ray showed constipation (so that aspect is back to normal, my intestines feel fine now but were cramping for the first couple months). i tried an antibiotic for IBS, i tried voquezna and felt so sick because I wasn't able to take my pantoprazole with it. ct scan shows nothing.

i know it's ridiculous but i cry almost every day because this feels like it's ruining my life. i just want my life back. i don't know what to do. i'm on carafate every 6 hours starting today. i'm just so scared