u/sky_witness____

I can't do anything anymore without worrying "will this make tinnitus worse??"

I wanna smoke weed? Oh no, I've gotta worry about tinnitus. What if it makes my tinnitus worse and I'm lying there at night in the darkness and I can't sleep because I'm scared and freaked out because of the FUCKING RINGING!!

I WANNA SMOKE WEED SO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't enjoy bacon or anything too salty, it'll make tinnitus worse. If I drink a lot today, will that make my tinnitus worse? Can't get too much cheese on something, have to look up the sodium content in certain cheeses before I order something to eat because oh god what if the salt makes the ringing worse???

Oh jeez, I just accidentally listened to my headphones at max volume for a second before adjusting (limited to 75 db on my iphone through settings I had to look up), this'll definitely make my tinnitus worse.

I just dropped a glass in my bathroom on the hard countertop, the loud sound will definitely make my tinnitus worse -- and then it does, because I worry about it endlessly, and stress myself out, and the stress ITSELF fucking causes the tinnitus to be worse!!

I 1,000% get the Texas Roadhouse guy who ended himself over this. This is not living. This is not LIVING, this is surviving. I am in hell

There is no therapy or pill that'll fix this, FUCK your therapy that'll supposedly "fix" this, I want OUT. I FUCKING WANT OUT.

OK just had to vent sorry