i don’t have a Dspd dx but I do have Bipolar 1. In the spring I can’t sleep and it gets later and later until the solstice, I’m not able to sleep until 3-4am. I can take 550 mg of seroquel at 9pm and still not fall asleep until 3am.
I’m wondering if my problem is related to this bc even medicated I can’t sleep until so late, then I sleep for like 12 hours bc the medication.
Would that probably ruin it?
Every night recently I’m seeing shadows dancing around, like they never stop until I close my eyes. They aren’t necessarily shaped like people but they seem to move like entities and there are a few of them.
I don’t believe what I’m seeing and I joke to myself that 4 dimensional beings are messing with with me.I do sometimes get really scared and it’s hard to convince myself there isn’t something there. I end up getting jumpscated a lot.
I feel like I’m not actually that mad/frustrated/whatever but what I say is super intense and I don’t realize it until later.
Like I feel at a loss at how to explain this bc my body is just exaggerating every emotion physiologically. But like, psychologically I’m not that mad. Does that make sense?
I have underdeveloped glutes which leads to compensation pattern that worsens my back pain. I did pt that focused on this, but what keeps happening is even normal daily use of my glutes will wear them out and they don’t work anymore. I can strain to engage them but they are weak, for days on end if I walk like more than 3,000 steps or do squats or something. I don’t know how I’m supposed to strengthen them if I can’t increase my activity level?
I saw a OT that suggested I get an MRI for tethered cord. She seemed to think maybe this doesn’t add up. All my issues are lower extremity. I don’t see her anymore but I scheduled the MRI just in case.
I’ve been going on dates and feel like maybe they are expecting me to be a certain way based on my profile but I’m not sure. I’m worried I just don’t live up to a certain dynamic that someone’s expecting or some kind of standard of what mascs or masc-adjacent ppl should be like? Like I maybe am misrepresenting myself unintentionally? I feel like my pics are really honest and good mix of candids but I can’t know for sure if that’s the issue. The last 2 photos aren’t on my profile so maybe it’s that my hair is longer than most of my photos?
For context the dates have leaned femme. I’m genderfluid and use they/them. I’m pretty shy and awkward especially at first. My charisma doesn’t really come through fully early on. I’m late dxd autistic(implied on my profile). I was in a relationship with an abusive man for many years, then alone for 3. Im facing rejection from women after meeting irl. My profile also states that I can’t drive lol.
I’ve been going on dates and feel like maybe they are expecting me to be a certain way based on my profile but I’m not sure. I’m worried I just don’t live up to a certain dynamic that someone’s expecting or some kind of standard of what mascs or masc-adjacent ppl should be like? Like I maybe am misrepresenting myself unintentionally? I feel like my pics are really honest and good mix of candids but I can’t know for sure if that’s the issue. The last 2 photos aren’t on my profile so maybe it’s that my hair is longer than most of my photos?
For context the dates have leaned femme. I’m genderfluid and use they/them. I’m pretty shy and awkward especially at first. My charisma doesn’t really come through fully early on. I’m late dxd autistic(implied on my profile). I was in a relationship with an abusive man for many years, then alone for 3. Im facing rejection from women after meeting irl. My profile also states that I can’t drive lol.
I don’t understand this med because most of the time I have issues waking up and am groggy for half the day. Then somehow this. I cannot sleep and I’m restless. I’m also on lithium.
Please share your strategies for waking up, shaking off the fog. I can’t do caffeine personally. I take seroquel and I wake up half alive and it lasts til early afternoon. I truly can’t shake it all off but sometimes if I force myself into an activity that helps but is excruciating. So I wonder if I can’t ease into it with some stuff I can add to my morning routine.
I’m someone who can take an ice cold shower but not in the morning lol. Tell me what works!
My mother was raised Roman Catholic, but she raised me atheist. I don’t believe in god, and know absolutely nothing about religion and a lot of history, never been to church either. I’m curious about the rituals and everything involved. I’m an artist and love baroque art especially, it stirs something so deep inside me that I don’t have words for, I don’t think there really are words for. I love organ music as well. More than that, I’ve had a lot of challenges in life and have felt so vulnerable. I don’t think I could ever really believe in a god, but I’m sympathetic to the idea and I feel like it’s how humans just make sense of things. My family is all STEM, not so much as a social scientist in my extended family. I love them and I’m very similar but there’s pieces of myself that never fit with them — I’m not sure those pieces belong in church but I want to explore it. I also hope it might make sense of some parts of my mother that I see but she doesn’t want to show me, she’s a 2nd generation Italian immigrant. I know she holds a lot of shame which drove assimilation and I feel like I lost a lot of culture from that.
With going to church I’m worried about not knowing what to do, sticking out like a sore thumb. I have respect for anyone’s place of worship but I don’t want to disrespect accidentally; or be singled out or pressured.
Another thing I’m worried about this is that I’m visibly queer, and I have no idea how to dress for this kind of thing in a way that doesn’t feel like closeting myself. Is there a way to check if a church is chill about that?
Proportions, perspective, anatomy is what I need crit for most but any is welcome. This is supposed to be 3 of the same figure. I used a 3d modeling website but couldn’t get any furniture and the models lack detail. I’d attach the 3d modeling but I didn’t really abide by it.
I’m taking a beginner fig drawing class at a college. The teacher is a jerk but at least he gives good critique. Come time for the final, he says it requires 1 nude or implied nude figure (but all 3 figures must be the same). I refused and said it made me uncomfortable and I don’t have another person to use as a model. He was pissed. He doesn’t think I have the knowledge required to fabricate the bg. Ik he will go extra hard on me. I’ve spent 2 days on this outline, asking family what looks right. I need input from other artists. I should have done this before using color and adding value.
Edit: everyone is working from 2d references for this assignment. We worked from models before which I did just fine. I’m refusing to draw *myself* nude. He has been inappropriate W me before more than once and I had to put my foot down. There’s no reason i should need to use myself for this, he could provide another reference that he thinks is suitable. It’s not like these are constraints he’s working w he designed the assignment.
With even the smallest bit of sweat, mine fall immediately. Looks strange bc only the part touching my head falls and the ends stay curly/wavy. 2b waves, cannot feel even a couple hairs together kind of fine. “Hell of a lot” density according to hairstylist.
I skip conditioner or do it before shampoo
I liked curlsmiths fragrance free strong hold gel but it irritates my skin, ironically.
I have tried LAlooks extreme sports gel but it doesn’t really hold clumps of curls, it sort of unravels and gets frizzy (if anyone has tips on how to use this please share)